Love again

I have fallen in love with her again. I am a selfish man and I fall for beauty. I will look at every beautiful girl who passes by me (well I am a man!). But not anymore. I don't know what she has done to herself, but everytime I see her I fall head over heels. These days I just look at the pretty faces in the crowd and reject them thinking, "naah, not even close to her!"


Last thursday I called her to my office. She refused and I fought. She does these silly things and is almost always illogical. I hate it. But then she made up for it. She did come and as soon as she entered, I lost my breath. I knew people around would stare at her. I wanted everyone to. "She's MY girlfriend".


I don't know what it is. Sometimes I want to write a book on her. but the very next moment we fight. I never get to go out with her. I really want to, and this angers me more than anything. But I am sure her reasons are valid. I hope things change soon. She stays very stressed sometimes and I know she needs my support. But she never says it. and she never tells me if she is bothered by something. Always keeps it inside her. and that makes me want to be with her even more. 


These days I just keep looking at her pictures and keep waiting for the moment we meet. We don't talk much on the phone too. It is just that brief period I spend with her that makes my day. Sometimes we talk, sometimes we just listen to songs. Sometimes we fight and leave! But I love her. I always have. For what she is, for what I am when I am with her. 


I just can't wait to meet her soon.