Thoughts on a rainy day

as opposed to western civilizations, India is backward. No I am not talking about our culture or traditions. They stay in the right place. I am talking about the spirit of exploration, science, tolerance and seeing beyond ourselves.

we hardly care for the environment. No respect for any other form of living existence than us. We only take from the society without the slightest wish to give back. We do not serve, we fight a lot, our egos are bloated beyond capacity and the slightest provocation brings out the satan inside of us. We are probably the worst form of living existence to say the least. We feed on intolerance and pride and we hate/kill people who try to reform us. 

we do not welcome change easily and are averse to any form of exploration. Our idea of a holiday is perhaps relaxing in our rooms with the television playing songs and we eating snackers. We work hard with our jobs and party harder too. But is that all about it? Mon to Fri grinding in the office with no respect to the global working duration (well we Indians work as slaves, without a doubt), Sat and Sunday partying with alchohol and loud music. Gosh that sucks!

when do we learn to explore the world around us? There is so much hidden to our eyes. So many things we can learn. How many of us indulge in outdoor activities, some form of recreation (which is not movies or shopping or mall visiting)? How many of us can play an instrument or speak a foreign language? How many of us went on a hike or camping recently? Alright chuck all that, how many of us even played carrom recently (everyone loves carrom now, comeon!) Even if you talk of indoors, how many of us have taken up reading as a part time or as a bed time story? 

Are we going to be a generation who spend their life staring at screens and projections leaving the world as it is, without any disruption? 

The thought scares me. We need to explore. We must. Explore the world around us and see as much as we can. Learn, unlearn and then learn again. Let us feed on nature for a while and on things not seen, heard or done. Life would be much beautiful then.

Let us start from me...

Life and its strange ways

Another of those beautiful days which ended like a dream should. I came back happy, more like grinning end to end. and yet with an emptiness. I wanted to say it and yet I couldn't. Something is not going right with my life. 

The trouble with life is when you want something, you'll never get it and when you least expect it, there it is - all yours for the taking. I hate this kind of life. 

Life should be simple, not a game of choices where you miss one chance and regret for the rest of your life. I hope I don't regret anything. At least I don't.

The trip that has become legendary

To my bros,

It is only now that the realization of our trip being over has sunk in. and i feel terrible. Of course it had to end, and of course we did all that we had to. There was not much left to be done now, was there? Lets be honest, we never went for scuba diving and banana rides anyways! We went to take a break. and we went because all of us were reuniting - probably for one last time.

But the realization that we won't get to be together for sometime now is making me feel terrible. This trip was the best not because of the things that we did, but because it was with you all. The six of us, completely different thinking individuals sticking together for 4 entire days made this trip awesome. We all never agreed on anything, did we? But conflicting thoughts have always led to new discoveries, which is what we did. We discovered a new layer to our friendship. From Khao San to Walking Street to Starbucks, every moment rocked because of all of you.

I have been the best of friends with gaurav and nipun since college. This time I discovered a new bond with Amber. and all thanks to the 2 nights we slept together. (one of the reasons i wanted each of us to swap rooms every night was for this bonding to happen). I am sure Aman hates lakhot a little less now :P and I am sure Gaurav and Nipun know each other a lot better.

Amber is the coolest guy to hang with and I wouldn't have known that if this trip hadn't happened. Aman became my closest thinking partner throughout and this trip would've been incomplete without him. I have always hated lakhot, and this trip made me realize how less that was! I should've pushed him off the motor boat when i had the chance. Damn!! but seriously, lakhot is the coolest guy to be with in a trip. The guy never says no to anything! How awesome is that!! Gaurav, you made this trip a reality and the gods of friendship will bless you for that bro :) lakhot and gaurav, you two have the biggest of hearts bros. Stay that way (and don't ask for the money I owe you :P). and Nipun bro, you always do those last minute awesome thinkings which lead us to some pretty amazing doings. and then you do those other last minute things which delay us :) ha ha! but then, it makes every trip fun when we look back. 

I am going to miss you all dudes. Terribly. More trips await us. Together. Lets just hope we stick together for the rest of our lives, with or without our wives :)

That moment

That beautiful moment, when you are staring at the girl you are mad about and she turns around, looks at you and gives you that killing smile. There goes my heart..:)

Good day

I have stopped blogging these days, but today I had a wonderful day and so I shall write.


I didn't go to office today as I had a meeting with a corporate in Saket. Got through with it by 1 and then wandered aimlessly in the Select City Walk mall while eating a delicious butter scotch cup! I then left for Adhchini to meet a friend at his house. Killed time for a few hours and left at 4. As I left, i received an unexpected payment from an unexpected client :) 


Luckily, earlier in the day Maulein had messaged me, and so I had already decided to leave early so that we could meet. For starters, Maulein was one of the dearest friends I made at Aricent - my first job. (ref: the post I wrote when she left). She got married in Dec 2009 and we had not met since then. Until today. After 2 and a half years!!


She was radiant as ever, fluffy as ever :P and she was charming as ever :) I felt so awkward meeting her after so many years. Didn't know how to meet her, what to say. But then with such good friends, there is never any awkwardness :) She came to meet me at the metro station and we clapped our hands just like old times :D The next 2 hours, we just talked. Like we had never separated! It was so awesome. When we left, i luckily met Varun (her husband and our Aricent mate) and we talked more. Finally i left for home. 
I wonder when i'll see her again. I hope soon. 


But this meeting made my day. I was really happy. I then caught the metro and came back home. Even happier :) Then, went out with Kunal and discussed crap while the weather turned awesome after a hot-as-hell day! Then me and my sisters had dinner together while we watched an old classic - Naseeb, and now I am going to sleep :)

Love again

I have fallen in love with her again. I am a selfish man and I fall for beauty. I will look at every beautiful girl who passes by me (well I am a man!). But not anymore. I don't know what she has done to herself, but everytime I see her I fall head over heels. These days I just look at the pretty faces in the crowd and reject them thinking, "naah, not even close to her!"


Last thursday I called her to my office. She refused and I fought. She does these silly things and is almost always illogical. I hate it. But then she made up for it. She did come and as soon as she entered, I lost my breath. I knew people around would stare at her. I wanted everyone to. "She's MY girlfriend".


I don't know what it is. Sometimes I want to write a book on her. but the very next moment we fight. I never get to go out with her. I really want to, and this angers me more than anything. But I am sure her reasons are valid. I hope things change soon. She stays very stressed sometimes and I know she needs my support. But she never says it. and she never tells me if she is bothered by something. Always keeps it inside her. and that makes me want to be with her even more. 


These days I just keep looking at her pictures and keep waiting for the moment we meet. We don't talk much on the phone too. It is just that brief period I spend with her that makes my day. Sometimes we talk, sometimes we just listen to songs. Sometimes we fight and leave! But I love her. I always have. For what she is, for what I am when I am with her. 


I just can't wait to meet her soon. 

Super Day!!

What a kickass day!
I woke up at 6 today and went for a morning run with Kunal at a wilderness track in the middle of DU north campus (Bonta, is what we call it). The track was so awesome, it was a jungle and the entire stretch was in gravel, uneven pitch over streams and ponds and under trees; there were elevations, slopes and there were birds and monkeys all around. The run was a real test and very exhausting. We left at 8:30 and from there i went to see a physiotherapist for a back ache. Had an awesome 1 hr of massage and relaxation there. Then came home, started work. Slept twice in between, though. Worked till 7 and then went for swimming :) Came back at 9, and watched another awesome movie - The Grey (Liam Neeson). 


Super day! If only it had some sex at night, it would be what i could call an ideal day - a routine i could live for the rest of my life. Happily ;)

Pool and avengers

Hit the swimming pool exactly after 5 years, and by god i almost pee'ed my pants. I was so scared! In 2007, right before joining my first job, I had started to learn some swimming. Just started, but that was enough to take the fear of water out of me. When job began, i left the pool. Went for rafting twice, but somehow managed. The fear slowly kept on creeping inside me, until it conquered me completely. Last year, i deliberately avoided the pool because of that. Today, for some reason (and thanks to sumit), i decided to, well 'conquer my fear' and went inside the water again. It was scary at first but then i enjoyed. It will take me sometime and yes some money too, but i think if i am regular i might learn how to swim.


The later part of the day was spent in watching the MARVELlous AVENGERS. It rocked! :)

Being happy...

- A little money, enough to keep me going
- Self respect for the work that i am doing and the life that i am living
- A happy day full of work and a satisfying night full of love with a girl i want to be with
is all that i want from my life.


Being happy is the toughest thing in the world - the odds are always against you. Even nature is. If at a particular point you are satisfied, nature conspires to turn around the events on their head - it will change people, circumstances, coincidences will work against you, luck will deceive you, things will get entangled, or you will lose something or someone. Those tears will fall. The trick is to cry hard and keep moving forward. 
Unless you do that, you will not be able to smile. 


So, keep going forward and stay happy. Nature will take its course, but it cannot change the way you feel about your life. Not for long.

WTF did just happen?!

It's wednesday evening and I am returning from office. My lady friend calls me and we decide to meet at cp and go back home together in the metro. It is going to take her another hour to reach and I am hungry. So i decide to get a burger from KFC and follow it up with some chaat. I reach Bindals and find the chaatwala on the park above. I have my chaat and glance at the time. Still 45 minutes to go. So i decide to take a stroll. Now some action begins.


I go to a far end of the park and stand there looking at the traffic, outside the LIC building while some couples make their evening worthwhile just behind me, giving a rats ass to the people in the park. Bored i decide to stroll once again and find a seat. I sit and open my bag, take my ipod out and run my newly downloaded songs on full volume. Life's still good with an ipod and full bass music. Now a mid age uncle, in his mid 40s i guess, very slowly passes by me, stops, looks back at me and comes and sits beside me on the bench. All could be well if this motherfucker would not start looking at me every 10 seconds. I get a little freaked out by this and so decide to get up and walk. But no, this bastard decides he wants to follow me. So i say, "ok man. lets see what u got". I take a u turn and stand, while staring at this motherfucking sob. And he decides to walk away. "good for you asshole". Relieved, i finally find a new bench already occupied, sit and play my ipod once again. 


But my evening is far from over. The shit faced pot bellied fucker is still there, standing in front of me towards the right and staring at me. And there is a sardar (mid 30s) standing on my left. This scares the shit out of me. "this is a mugging gang and they are going to rob me of my laptop and ipod today. fuck!", i say to myself, "they are going to follow me and probably knife me in some alley". I decide to put my ipod back in, get up and start walking. As i pass the viginal insect, i ask him "Kya uncle, kya baat hai? kuch chal raha hai dimag me to bata do!" and the guy says "kuch nahi!" and begins to walk alongside me, while trying to strike a conversation. Man i am freaked out like anything by then. and i am scared like hell.


As i take the pathway to the stairs and try to dodge this bastard, i meet a college guy carrying some books. He asks me if i am waiting for someone here or what, because he is new to the city and wants to know something about cp. "goodness gracious", i begin a conversation with him and follow the path down to the main inner circle of cp. the guy tells me he is doing his MPhil from DU and is from Rajasthan. He asks me again if i am waiting for someone and upon my saying no, he tells me someone had told me about this place. I ask, "about CP?", and he says, "No, the park". Curious and a little amused, i smile and ask him what the f can be so special about this god damn freaky park! and thats when the golden words come out - "This park is a GAY park. People come here to seek partners for the night". He laughs at me and tells me how could i have been living in delhi and not know about this. I tell him i am clueless and wonder if this kid is gay. "Why take a chance", i say and decide to take his leave. 


The guy holds his hand out for a handshake (just like bros), but as i shake his hand the motherfucking son of a filthy bitch feels my hand! I shake it off and decide to cross the road. I look back and see that old bastard still standing 20 feet away. "Bull crap i am surrounded from all sides". As i am wondering, where to go so i could avoid both these sobs, the college kid comes up to me from behind and says, "are you really leaving or are you staying? cz if you are staying, I WAS THINKING YOU COULD BE A GOOD OPTION FOR ME"..!!! 


I smile at him and dash to the metro station, for my life!


I HATE GAYS!!

2 and a half kickass days

Last week started out great, with the anticipation of the coming weekend. Ankur's wedding on friday, followed by our trip to Kasauli (my fourth) and then Himanshu's wedding on sunday. I was excited on thusday and tried to wrap all work by friday itself. By evening we left for Ankur's wedding and reached just in time for the baraat. What followed was unlimited booze and super madness, the third awesome wedding i have attended so far (after vershney and anjum). We left at 3 and i reached home at 4 with romit, but not before puking twice on the road. 


I slept instantly, got up at 7:40 of pandu's call, got ready in 40 minutes and left for kasauli. Puked thrice on the way before i finally started feeling awesome again (3 hours after leaving). Then drove all the way from Ambala to Kasauli on the amaaazzzzing new highway they've constructed. By god it was awesome. 


We reached kasauli at 4 and were welcomed with beautiful rainy chill. We spent the night there, eating and boozing (my third continuous day) and mouthing farts :P Woke up to a beaaautiful sunny day, spent it hiking to a temple and eating stuff. Then finally left for home :)


We all reached home just in time to leave for Himanshu's baraat on sunday at 9PM. Danced a little and ate much. fortunately without drinking! Met a lot of people there and came back tired. 


My much anticipated weekend was finally over and so was the almost 8 month hiatus between my last 2 trips! Boy, was i not glad i saw this weekend pass.

Some songs

There are some songs which get etched into our memories, not because of the music or the song itself, but because of the event they are associated with. The event can be a friend's marriage or a very simple thing as a journey from one place to another. Such is the power of the sub conscious mind. I've been wanting to recollect many such songs which take me back into time whenever I hear them; below is an attempt

• I want it that way (Backstreet Boys) - Probably the first english song i heard. On my school trip to Appu Ghar. I was in 9th or 10th (2000). It was Anjum's walkman and he had the entire BB cassette collection. I absolutely loved this and copied his cassette when I came back. 
• Character dheela (some Salman Khan movie) - This was played last year at my best friend Vershney's wedding on May 4. It was on repeat by the dj and we kept requesting it again and again. We were badly drunk and I had the dance of my life. It was pure awesomeness. Anytime I hear this, I am taken back to Aligarh :)
• Dil ne tum ko chun liya hai (Jhankar Beats) - When I was in EVS, we used to have some friday bashes at pubs or lounges in gurgaon. At one such absolutely amazing bash (I think it was a Urban Cafe) our gm and an irritating manager were absent. There was no one to stop the remaining team (of 12 analysts, senior analysts and managers) from having an awesome party. Towards the end the dj played this song and all the men started dancing with each other :D I just escaped a fight when my junior Abhas dragged me back from going to propose a girl :P
• Aaoge jab tum Saajna (Jab we Met) - Dec 21, 2007. I went to Chennai to meet my girlfriend who was posted there for a training. Didn't have much money so traveled 2500km alone by train for 2 days. When on the morning of 23rd our train entered Chennai, there was fog all around! People said this was the first time such a thing happened. My iPod was playing this beautiful song and i just couldn't wait to meet her. After an agonizing long 3 more hours, as i was standing in the besant nagar market (i think that was the name of the market), she came from behind and patted me :) I dont know who was happier, me or her. After a blissful 2 days, I left back on 25th with tears in my eyes.
• Sadda Haq (Rockstar) - This was supposedly our new year theme song for 2012. Sadda Haq, Aithe Rakh! As soon as the clock struck 12, we started this and sang in full volume welcoming the new year.
• Black or White (Michael Jackson) - The same party, only 1 hr later. High on booze and life, i kept sliding and dancing to the tune of all MJ songs that played that night. I only remember flashes of it and most pieces have been filled by friends, but it was the most amazing party of my life. Any MJ song I listen to now, brings back those flashes
• Bin Tere (I hate love stories) - I heard this song after I had a break up. We were coming back from a trip to Binsar in June/July 2010. I heard it 20 times before everyone in the cab finally got tired. Then i heard it all the way back on my ipod. 
• Tere Mast Mast do Nain (Dabangg) - This song reminds me of the awesome 2 months of car pool I had in evs. Me, dheeraj, rashi r and sunny in Dheeraj's Tata Nano from home to office to home. Whenever an FM station played this song we would shout "Nano meeeeee" :D These rides were the best times during those fucked up office days. When we started this pool, i actually started looking forward to going to office.
• Tum jo aye zindagi me baat ban gayi (Once upon a time in mumbai) - I had never noticed how beautiful this song is until i heard it with a friend during my malaysia-singapore trip. While on our way from Kuala Laumpur to Singapore in a hired taxi, i stumbled upon this song in my ipod (me and my friend Raj were sharing earphones). The guy was a huge fan of this song and made me listen to it about 10 times before taking the other earphone and putting the song on repeat again!
• Pichle saat dino me (Rock On!) - This song takes me back to the time when I first saw the movie. First day first show, friday morning, 5 of us bunked office, switched off our cell phones and went to watch this sheer awesomeness. When we came back all hell was lose and we all had to stretch extra in office. Worth it? Totally!
• Naughty Girl (beyonce) - I dont like this song and i dont hear it often. But when ever it plays, I go back to the LHMC times. We used to wait for LH's college fest (there were 2 in an year, right after our mid sems). We used to completely dig the girls of LH and their fashion parade. This song almost always played whenever we went to LH.
• Jao Na (Whats your rashi) - I love this song. I used to hear it during my last days at Aricent and my last bus rides with my bus mate Tulsi. It was so dreadful to even think of leaving that fun part of aricent after 2 and a half years. Amazing song, beautiful memories.
• Katiya Karu (Rockstar) - Ludhiana! In Oct 2011 we went to Ludhiana to attend Anjum (a Christian)'s wedding with Divya (a Punjabi). We reached in the morning and were welcomed into our hotel room with 2 crates of beer (20 bottles of chilled Kingfisher!). KF never tasted that good anywhere else. It was Punjab afterall! Along with the beer and our own bc, played some music on the TV, with Katiya Karu almost on repeat. We gradually liked this song so much (with some of our own interpretation of the lyrics :P) that it became our song of the trip. Even today it is fondly remembered by all of us 6 who went there and we never change the station if this song is playing :D

I think there are some more songs which bring back memories. I'll have to wait before I hear them. Will keep adding to this list.

Awesomeness lingers on

Well, despite the failure of a life I live, awesomeness refuses to leave me :P So I had 2 amazing days in the last one week. 


Saturday, I went to see Paan Singh Tomar - arguably one of the best movies I have ever seen in Indian cinema. (read my review here). Had a good subway salad too with the movie. Then as I was wondering whether I should leave for home or not, I got a call from my lady friend and so I left, just in time to catch her on the way for an auto ride home :) (this also taught me a useful lesson - if you want something to happen, you got to try!) I met her after about 5/6 months and that just made my day. Then later that night, I had an amazing Sat night party at our adda Route04 with booze, food and bong. The college gang met after about 3-4 months and Romit paid the bill in celebration of his engagement. I will remember this day till eternity, that miser baniya gave a party of more than 5000bucks!


On thursday, I went with dad to the courts. The day started chilly and the sun came up early. So there was a very bright sunshine but a very cold breeze blowing as well. Perfect weather for Delhi! The drive to the court is not very pleasant as we are already late (because of me) and so I have to literally push the gas pedal and have us reach on time. Once there, after dad went in, I chose a distant spot among the farm lands on both sides, rolled down the windows and pulled back my seat to a recline, switched on the radio and took out a bunch of comic books I had brought along. The next half hour was bliss! Totally. I went in after sometime and when we left, we took a new road which cut through some villages onto the highway. For about 30 minutes I drove at 120kmph without slowing down a bit, the sun up and the wind blowing. It was heaven.
Later in the evening, when I was done with our evening walk, a friend picked us up and we shot to Jama Masjid Karims for chicken which the other two had. It was 12:00 in the midnight and the whole market at Jama Masjid was lit and bustling. It was amazing. I have never seen a market so alive at such a late hour. We came down at 1, had one of  the most patiently made pans ever (the chacha took nearly 15 minutes to prepare it) and drive back home, with the chilly wind still blowing. I came home and just slept.

Awesomeness is back

2 absolutely amazing days with the oldest people I can call friends - my school mates. Spent saturday at Sidharth's house in gurgaon celebrating Pandu's b'day. Had a super house party, mixed with nostalgia. Got drunk, remembered old days, talked about life, danced and sang and then drove back home at 3 in the morning. People present were Sid and his beautiful and sporty wife Lucy, Sumit and his mind blowingly sweet wife Astha (he is one lucky bastard and she was such a good host!), Renny and his guitar, and of course Amar :) The morning's hangover next day told me subtly how amazing a night I had. Then again, I vowed not to mix drinks again :P


Sunday morning (the same one with the terrible hangover) was scheduled to play cricket with old friends. Now this was the icing on my superb weekend. 10 old school friends, some meeting straight after 9 years, met in our school grounds and played cricket at the very same place we used to when we were kids :) We left nothing to chance, we played, ran, abused, shouted, fought, cheated and only stopped playing when we lost all 4 balls there were to play! Right now at least 4 completely distinct parts in my body are paining as hell and I wonder what is going to happen in the morning. But the feeling...well it just doesnt go away. :)

Sad day

Finally the day has come. Preeti is going back with my nephew :( For the past 45 days all I did was play with our little man. Day in and day out, as soon as I got bored of work I would rush to grab him and fling him in the air, then catch him and take him upstairs all the while kissing and biting his soft 2 year old cheeks :) He is just so damn cute and naughty is not even the right word for him. He is the most superlative form of that! He can understand every shit you talk and his ears are everywhere. He is least interested in girls and all he cares for are his cars. He had 3 to drive this time! I bet he will drive a real car by next year. Carrying him around even helped me build some muscles :P Next year he will become a lot heavier, I'll have even better biceps then.


Boy, I am going to terribly miss him. Terribly terribly terribly. Shit man, he should not be going :'(

Happy Birthday to me!

Yesterday I celebrated one of the better birthdays I would remember. I hate the day like anything and the only thing i wish for is the day to end on 2nd feb. But i was in for a surprise. At 00:00 3 of my best school friends showed up inside my room with a cake. I knew wat was to come next and so politely took off my jacket and sweater. After 5 minutes, I had cake smeared all over my face, neck, hair and other unmentionable places. I was then wished by more than a dozen friends who chose to stay awake and call me than sleep. That made me feel something!


In the morning, while i kept attending calls, i was wished by my cutest 2 year old nephew. I then had one of the most wonderful lunches with my friend in noida at Sanjeev Kapoor's restaurant - Yellow Chilli. We ordered no paneer and no daal. Only 2 things - spicy gol matol aloo and baby corn in paalak. What a delicacy! (we also had a drink each). Then a round of table tennis and a sliceof domino's pizza :D I came back to some more calls from old friends and reached home to just 1 mail from business. Only 1. What can give you more happiness than coming home after a long day to just 1 mail :) We then had an awesome family dinner at home and now I am about to sleep :)


Happy Birthday to me, as I inch closer towards 30. Can't believe!!

Bad day

What an ugly day. Another trip to the colleges and more disappointment. Somehow I like to live like an ostrich. When there is danger, bury your face inside the soil and pretend you are safe! These trips to colleges and meeting placement heads, make me feel like this - why did I go?!


Nevertheless I came back, to more disappointment and a surprise gone awry :( Tears followed and then followed an ugly fight!! And last was the icing. I watched the most sucking, fucked up, asinine movie of all times - the new Agnipath. It was such a bad idea to watch it. Fuck you karan johar, you made a shitcrap out of a masterpiece.

That beautiful ugly feeling...

While falling in love is a beautiful feeling..falling in love with the wrong person is not so much. It slowly kills you from inside because you just cannot do anything. 


Who is a wrong person? 
A wrong person is one who does not acknowledge your being there and does not reciprocate. So it's basically a one-sided affair!


So what can you do? or what Should you do!?
Well for starters, you can stop thinking about her (or him). Then, you can stop making calls or SMSes (one of the curses of our times is the cell phone). Then, you can start ignoring her calls too. and then follow it up by completely forgetting her. It is difficult, sometimes very difficult and may take about 2-4 months, with the concussions staying for Ever..but then as they said, "A man's got to do what he's got to do!". 
To do this, you need to find some other time killing things to do. Like smoking a cigarette or drinking alcohol (which will kill you and time both together!) or you could find some serious work to do like build a website! You will however do best, if you can find a lass to replace her. Good luck with that! Also, you will need an endless supply of episodes of 2 and a Half Men, South Park and How I Met Your Mother. Do Not Forget That Under Any Circumstances!


Can't we be friends?
Nope. If you have 'feelings' (if you ever had them), then you cannot be 'just friends' with her. In fact you will end up ruining her and your own life as time progresses. So, sorry! On the other hand, for the females it is quite possible I guess...they can be 'just friends'. I don't know actually, i need a second opinion on that.


So...
So, start today and earn yourself a bumper prize of singlehood (which if you haven't realized yet, you were anyways!)

I shall not be none.

Either I will be ahead of all of you or I will be different. I shall not be none.

2011 - THE YEAR!

2011 will definitely go down as one of the most, what should i say, colorful year of my life. If I have to put it, i saw shades of yellow (brightness), green (success), red (alerts), black (dullness), grey (failures), blue (happiness), everything! 


I broke away from the shackles of everyday routine, found my own symphony in life, enjoyed my time and killed a bit of it too. I saw dismay, i saw euphoria, i was happy and i was depressed. Most importantly, i came to find a lot about myself. Things which i never knew i was, things which i now want to do and want to be. I am more confident about myself now than i ever was.


So, i sat down the other day to list down some of the major events from the past year and ended up making an excel sheet out of it. I don't want to display the whole sheet here, but 2 graphs which accurately describe how I went about the year.


Here they are:

A roller coaster without a doubt! In June we launched operations of getsetResumes.com and got our first few clients and some dream feedbacks. November saw the maximum business. And undoubtedly, September was the most depressing month of the year. The main reason for that was after Romit left getsetResumes in Aug, I lost almost all of my morale to continue. Somehow, i regained it all in the next 2 months.

The fun months were Feb - my maiden trip outside of India (of my own money), April - India won the World Cup!, May - vershney got married, July - second trip to dhanaulti, and October - diwali, F1, anjum's wedding.

Well, I have a lot to be done and a lot to be lived too! Hopefully this year will be better :)

Love

Before you can grow up, you must fall in love three times.

Once, you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship and trying to earn it back. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more.

Once you must fall in love with someone you believe is perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as anything less than you deserve.

And once, you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.

And when you’re through with all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that needed you the most.

But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined, it is different to each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone wants to be loved ...

~ from the internet 

Happy New Year!

This new year was the best new years party I have EVER had. In fact this party will easily be one of the best parties I have ever had! And the awesomest part about it - I dont remember much ;) 


I was badly drunk, with whiskey, vodka, fire shots, hukkah, wine, rum - everything inside me! I have faint memories of dedicating Sadda Haq as our song for the coming year and shouting from the balcony asking some of our married friends to get lost, then dancing and specially sliding :P every now and then to the songs of Michael Jackson ("Ooow"). Boy! 


When I woke up the next morning, all I wanted was to vomit, once for God's sake. I did, went home, slept like a maniac, then woke up and ate like a glutton. When I was satiated, I smsed a big "Sorry" to all those married friends who had come to our party with their wives. I was embarrassed. Tonite, I 'had' to meet one of them and his wife. As I stepped out of the car and sheepishly went ahead to greet both of them, the beautiful lady in red smirked "Hello Rajat, I am married! I am married!" and my head went something like, WTF did I do that night! But before I could gather my visions and recall and mutter an apology, she said "I never knew you were so cute"..!!!!! :) This is a smile which I am going to carry for sometime now :)


The husband wife then told me what all crap I said and did, much to my embarrassment but more to my delight that I was well behaved. Phew!! :D Well, the hangover is still there and I am enjoying every bit of it.


Happy New Year :)