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have you ever tried to test nature's patience? don't. nature fucks like hell. but have you ever tried to test your own patience?

we all want somethings in life. and somethings we want real bad. how often do we get what we want? almost never. i'd say 1 in 100000 times. at least the figure is true for me. but isn't that because we stop waiting (and then stop trying)? yes. try this. the next time you want something really bad (something not in your hands) make a note of it. and wait. keep waiting. don't let that thing get out of your head. it'll eventually be yours. Must have heard of that cliched dialogue, "when you want something extremely bad, the whole universe conspires to give it to you!". i'll tell you what, its true. the problem is that the universe works really sloooooow. but it works nonetheless.

so the next time you want something, just don't stop wanting. If there is one person on this earth who should get that thing it should be you!

the reason

Friday was my last day at work. for the time being. i was looking forward to this break..even though i had already had a month long one about a month ago! anyways, this whole looking forward thing got fucked up coz of one word, which highlights most of my blogs, nostalgia. i might not have enough words for describing the hatred i had for my workplace and for the work, but nostalgia fills me nonetheless. i was there for a whole 30 months. thats a loong time u see. my first company. i still remember the ecstasy of being placed, of getting my first job. only to land up here!

but, whatever happens happens for a reason. and the reason is only clear in retrospect. so while i wait for the actual retrospective to be enlightened, i might have discovered some reasons i was sent here for, myself.

number 1 reason was to find the absolutely amazing and crazy bunch of mf asshole friends i found here. "you dont make friends at the workplace", is what i used to hear. let me tell you something, i found my best friends here..in this hole. friends so good, i never even made in college. and to imagine most of them are only dceites, is even crazier. i mean how could we not meet in our abode?!
number 2 reason was to meet 2 absolutely amazing girls (both with strange names!) who would become my first and only female friends for life. they changed my whole perspective of looking at girls - now, all females are not as dumb and allergic as they look!
number 3, i was sent here to learn to laugh my guts out. i cant recall days when i actually did that before i came here. this sucking place which made me sulk so much, also gave me a friend who taught me to laugh. and laugh i now, from the inside! and with that friend i learnt to be a kid, to be myself when i wanted to be.
number 4 reason, and perhaps the most important one, it made me realise what a big mistake i had made when i chose software engineering as my profession! i was never born to do this. naah! well, it still didnt clear up what i was born to do :P but definitely not this!
number 5. now this is stupid. this place taught me the value of patience, the value of keeping quiet when silence mattered and, !!!! the value of being nice to everyone. i couldnt have said this 2 months ago. but something has woken up inside me..dn know for how long! i had thought of fighting with my onsite manager but i didnt. i thought of writing a nice hate mail before i left, but instead i met my seniors and left with a smile! and i had to remove the attitude problem badge i carried! unlike me, huh?

is it coincidental that when i came back from the month long break and had realised all this, that i immediately got the shift i was looking for? well, i guess somethings happen for a reason.