maverick me

Happy Birthday to me!

2012-02-03T01:16:00.002+05:30

Yesterday I celebrated one of the better birthdays I would remember. I hate the day like anything and the only thing i wish for is the day to end on 2nd feb. But i was in for a surprise. At 00:00 3 of my best school friends showed up inside my room with a cake. I knew wat was to come next and so politely took off my jacket and sweater. After 5 minutes, I had cake smeared all over my face, neck, hair and other unmentionable places. I was then wished by more than a dozen friends who chose to stay awake and call me than sleep. That made me feel something!

In the morning, while i kept attending calls, i was wished by my cutest 2 year old nephew. I then had one of the most wonderful lunches with my friend in noida at Sanjeev Kapoor's restaurant - Yellow Chilli. We ordered no paneer and no daal. Only 2 things - spicy gol matol aloo and baby corn in paalak. What a delicacy! (we also had a drink each). Then a round of table tennis and a sliceof domino's pizza :D I came back to some more calls from old friends and reached home to just 1 mail from business. Only 1. What can give you more happiness than coming home after a long day to just 1 mail :) We then had an awesome family dinner at home and now I am about to sleep :)

Happy Birthday to me, as I inch closer towards 30. Can't believe!!

Bad day

2012-01-31T01:04:00.002+05:30

What an ugly day. Another trip to the colleges and more disappointment. Somehow I like to live like an ostrich. When there is danger, bury your face inside the soil and pretend you are safe! These trips to colleges and meeting placement heads, make me feel like this - why did I go?!

Nevertheless I came back, to more disappointment and a surprise gone awry :( Tears followed and then followed an ugly fight!! And last was the icing. I watched the most sucking, fucked up, asinine movie of all times - the new Agnipath. It was such a bad idea to watch it. Fuck you karan johar, you made a shitcrap out of a masterpiece.

That beautiful ugly feeling...

2012-01-17T00:41:00.000+05:30

While falling in love is a beautiful feeling..falling in love with the wrong person is not so much. It slowly kills you from inside because you just cannot do anything.

Who is a wrong person?
A wrong person is one who does not acknowledge your being there and does not reciprocate. So it's basically a one-sided affair!

So what can you do? or what Should you do!?
Well for starters, you can stop thinking about her (or him). Then, you can stop making calls or SMSes (one of the curses of our times is the cell phone). Then, you can start ignoring her calls too. and then follow it up by completely forgetting her. It is difficult, sometimes very difficult and may take about 2-4 months, with the concussions staying for Ever..but then as they said, "A man's got to do what he's got to do!".
To do this, you need to find some other time killing things to do. Like smoking a cigarette or drinking alcohol (which will kill you and time both together!) or you could find some serious work to do like build a website! You will however do best, if you can find a lass to replace her. Good luck with that! Also, you will need an endless supply of episodes of 2 and a Half Men, South Park and How I Met Your Mother. Do Not Forget That Under Any Circumstances!

Can't we be friends?
Nope. If you have 'feelings' (if you ever had them), then you cannot be 'just friends' with her. In fact you will end up ruining her and your own life as time progresses. So, sorry! On the other hand, for the females it is quite possible I guess...they can be 'just friends'. I don't know actually, i need a second opinion on that.

So...
So, start today and earn yourself a bumper prize of singlehood (which if you haven't realized yet, you were anyways!)

I shall not be none.

2012-01-08T01:34:00.004+05:30

Either I will be ahead of all of you or I will be different. I shall not be none.

2011 - THE YEAR!

2012-01-07T14:02:00.000+05:30

2011 will definitely go down as one of the most, what should i say, colorful year of my life. If I have to put it, i saw shades of yellow (brightness), green (success), red (alerts), black (dullness), grey (failures), blue (happiness), everything!

I broke away from the shackles of everyday routine, found my own symphony in life, enjoyed my time and killed a bit of it too. I saw dismay, i saw euphoria, i was happy and i was depressed. Most importantly, i came to find a lot about myself. Things which i never knew i was, things which i now want to do and want to be. I am more confident about myself now than i ever was.

So, i sat down the other day to list down some of the major events from the past year and ended up making an excel sheet out of it. I don't want to display the whole sheet here, but 2 graphs which accurately describe how I went about the year.

Here they are:

A roller coaster without a doubt! In June we launched operations of getsetResumes.com and got our first few clients and some dream feedbacks. November saw the maximum business. And undoubtedly, September was the most depressing month of the year. The main reason for that was after Romit left getsetResumes in Aug, I lost almost all of my morale to continue. Somehow, i regained it all in the next 2 months.

The fun months were Feb - my maiden trip outside of India (of my own money), April - India won the World Cup!, May - vershney got married, July - second trip to dhanaulti, and October - diwali, F1, anjum's wedding.

Well, I have a lot to be done and a lot to be lived too! Hopefully this year will be better :)

Love

2012-01-06T12:02:00.001+05:30

Before you can grow up, you must fall in love three times.

Once, you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship and trying to earn it back. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more.

Once you must fall in love with someone you believe is perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as anything less than you deserve.

And once, you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.

And when you’re through with all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that needed you the most.

But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined, it is different to each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone wants to be loved ...

~ from the internet

Happy New Year!

2012-01-05T00:33:00.000+05:30

This new year was the best new years party I have EVER had. In fact this party will easily be one of the best parties I have ever had! And the awesomest part about it - I dont remember much ;)

I was badly drunk, with whiskey, vodka, fire shots, hukkah, wine, rum - everything inside me! I have faint memories of dedicating Sadda Haq as our song for the coming year and shouting from the balcony asking some of our married friends to get lost, then dancing and specially sliding :P every now and then to the songs of Michael Jackson ("Ooow"). Boy!

When I woke up the next morning, all I wanted was to vomit, once for God's sake. I did, went home, slept like a maniac, then woke up and ate like a glutton. When I was satiated, I smsed a big "Sorry" to all those married friends who had come to our party with their wives. I was embarrassed. Tonite, I 'had' to meet one of them and his wife. As I stepped out of the car and sheepishly went ahead to greet both of them, the beautiful lady in red smirked "Hello Rajat, I am married! I am married!" and my head went something like, WTF did I do that night! But before I could gather my visions and recall and mutter an apology, she said "I never knew you were so cute"..!!!!! :) This is a smile which I am going to carry for sometime now :)

The husband wife then told me what all crap I said and did, much to my embarrassment but more to my delight that I was well behaved. Phew!! :D Well, the hangover is still there and I am enjoying every bit of it.

Happy New Year :)

Awesome thing # 60 and some of the worst days of my life

2011-12-30T01:05:00.000+05:30

New Year is approaching and my life is becoming a living hell. The past 7 days have been a roller coaster ride which i will not be able to forget. Exactly 7 days ago, last thursday i had one of the best parties with my college gang at Machan (gurgaon) with ample booze and amazing fun. Next day I watched a stand up comedy act at one of the elitest places in Delhi and had the best italian in town. Best days? Hell yeah!

Saturday i went down with a terrible cold and remained bed ridden. Bad? Not yet. Starting from there, for the next 48 hrs i continuously fought with my parents for issues which have been bothering us for sometime now. What was worse was that i was completely lonely and had not one person willing to go out ANYwhere! The kind of social life I live, this alone is enough to crack my nuts. The constant cribbing at home made matters worse and for the first time i felt close to breaking down. And add to that the loss on the professional front. I lost a very good freelancer who was working for me, because of an ego clash (not mine, his).

The next 4 days I spent talking to my friend in kolkata and planning a trip; which i successfully did. I was scheduled to first leave for the city on 29th and then on 30th. But a terribly silly un-understandable and unbelievable mistake did not let me book my ticket. I just could not believe myself when i realized i had to spend my new year here, where i right now hate the most!

And today, with the feeling and acceptance having sunk in finally, I went again with friends to attend a Live performance by a new Indian band named Faridkot. Surprisingly the band was performing at Sura Vie, Sanjeev Kapoor's amazing pub in the heart of Delhi and we had an absolutely rocking time.

P.S. The only thing which bothers me now is that this is another thursday and i do not want to spend another week in agony. I hate my life :(

Awesome thing # 59 - 8 Years!

2011-12-19T00:50:00.000+05:30

I met Vinson James today, after 8 years and that was the awesome part of the day. Had to wait the entire day for some action and by god what kinda!! We met, 5 of us; drank, at least 3 different types; ate; laughed, fuck we laughed so much i even blew my nose once (that was even more hilarious by the way :D); and then we came back singing. Bloody hell, fuckin unimaginably Awesome night..

Awesome thing # 58 - Cake

2011-12-18T01:34:00.000+05:30

This goes down as one hell of a day in my books. A not so usual saturday slowly turning into a very bad one and then into one of the best ones. Here's how it went
1. Woke up at 8 and left for the court for the usual hearing by 9:30.
2. Drove the amazingly smooth sedan at a relaxed speed of 100 and reached the court well on time by 10:15 (just 15 min late)
3. Proceedings got over in 10 minutes and by 10:30 we are free to go home!
4. But wait, one asshole from the proceedings is missing. Can't leave till his signature is inked. So wait.
5. Agonizingly Wait - 11:30
6. Angrily Wait - 12:30
7. Very Very Angrily Wait - 13:30
8. The mother fuckin sob comes finally, after a 3 hour wait which i spend doing absolutely nothing except stare at walls and trees in the compound. Shit shit shit.
9. Now the judge keeps us waiting.We finally get free at 2:30
10. Time for lunch at Murthal :)
11. Try a new dhaba - Ahuja's this time. Amazing food and service! 3:30
12. Leave for Delhi. Catch roadways bus and leave for home. Dad leaves for office.
13. Bus comes and in the middle of the highway, takes a detour! Fuck!! Get in a fight on phone in the bus..even more fuck!
14. Reach metro half an hour later (already late by 3 hrs). 4:30
15. Call saxo and leave for Lajpat Nagar.
16. Reach Lajpat Nagar and its bustling market - 5:30. Check out babes on the way ;)
17. Finally, meet vershney and his wife (for the first time since their marriage) - 6:00. Mission accomplished. Had to do this today else god knows when we could've met.
18. Have an evening snack at his brother's resto. gala time - old friends, old talks :)
19. Leave for home for Akshat's birthday celebrations. - 7:00 (already late by an hour)
20. Check out babes on the way back ;)
21. Reach home and start rushing. 8:00
22. Get all things arranged, burn coal and get ready for the bon fire. - 9:30
23. Forget to order dinner; order!
24. Finally all set!! Sit and the party begins...phew!!
25. Food done, everything else done, time for cake :O :) Awesomely amazingly yummily delightful chocolate vanilla cake. Wow, its taste still lingers :)
26. Sit by the fire for the story session to begin. Bade papa starts and how the next 2 hrs pass, we have no clue.... :)

Sucker for company

2011-12-13T21:28:00.000+05:30

The hardest thing about being an entrepreneur (for some reason, i hate that word) is that you are all alone. For most part, that is true. The tough thing is that this most part comes in the initial years, when success is a distant dream, and failure is a daily meal and when you need someone by your side the most. This makes you (me) a sucker for company. Heck, any company! Most part of the day is spent in my office cum bedroom sitting alone working or staring at the computer. When i feel bored, i watch an episode of LOST or 2 and a half men which eases me a bit always. Charlie Sheen by the way is super awesome and if you have not watched LOST, please do. Mostly this brings me to the evening. This. Not a word uttered the whole time since waking up. Because there is no one to talk to! Sometimes I feel like calling someone up, but how many times can you call the same person up again and again? If you don't get irritated, they will. Sometimes I wish I could go meet a friend, but not even the better friends have time from office and their own lives. This makes me wonder, all the crap that people tell you about keeping work life at a second priority to personal things only makes sense when 2 people do it together. One alone will get BORED. And that is what i am. Pretty bored actually, of being alone.

and this weather is making it worse. Laziness + boredom = madness!!

P.S. Should i just login to a dating site? I wonder if they even work with the fake profiles n all. Or probably i should call up some escort service? But they are costly. I guess i should marry? Whoa marriage seems such a great idea right now!
Man, I wish i could just date some chick these days.

Awesome thing # 57 - People!

2011-11-12T14:36:00.000+05:30

Tuesday sucked. I woke my lazy ass at 6am in the morning of this chilly weather and went to attend the Art of Living's 1st of the 6 days course - my second stint in 2 years. Why i went there was for the Yoga. They teach some breathing things which are seriously good. I still remember the first thing i learnt here 2 years ago. It went something like this

There are 3 types of species in the world

Dog - breathes 3 times in 1 sec

Man - breathes once in 1 sec

Tortoise - breathes once in 3 sec

Dog: lives upto 15 years

Man: lives upto 80 years

Tortoise: lives upto 180 years!

So, if you breathe properly, you will live properly.

This was the driving force which took me to this camp again. and it worked well for me the last time. If you try to breathe properly, you will inhale so much oxygen that it will give you a super HIGH, and give you a dreamless, peaceful sleep for days! and then to top it, it will improve your health, your fat will burn fast and your blood flow will increase. Super stuff, aint it!

But, i guess somethings are better left done only once. Like this camp. My first day here on tuesday was boring, sad and i hated the teacher who was taking it. They repeat stuff! The only good part came after 2 hours of utter boredom - we meditated and then did some breathing exercise. Needless to say, i skipped the entire camp after that and haven't gone there again. Nor will I go in the future. Sorry, AOL :|

The next day, wednesday, I met at least 14 different people throughout the day! Not including my family members, of course. Started the day at 8am, went to the court with dad and met 3 usual case-mates :P Came back and then met Romit and went to dce yet again. (4) Had the best post-lunch snacks again :) Then i went to the hospital to meet my older cousin who was admitted for some disease. Met him and my uncle. (6). Left that place and accidentally called up Tulsi, met her :) (7). Came back then and went for a walk with Piyush after dinner. (8). After i came back, saw my 'gali' people playing badminton. Struck a conversation with one of them and ended up playing badminton with the 3 couples. (14). Needless to say again, i have plans to start playing with them more often :)

Awesome thing # 56 - Frizbee

2011-11-07T00:45:00.000+05:30

It was almost after 10 years that i touched a frizbee today and almost 15 years since i actually played. Well, when you want something to happen, it does eventually...and so it happened today :) Me, pandu and amar, a frizbee and a bat-ball went to India Gate to give our lazy and couch-ridden bodies some activity. And we found out one thing - Frizbee is damn tough a sport to play because of 2 reasons. One, not many people find it easy to throw the disc (pandu just couldn't throw it!) and partly because of it, two, it is very very tiring..because the disc follows some complex laws of aerodynamics to never land where it is intended to :P We had super awesome fun though. We also played some catch catch with our tennis ball :D Serious reminder of school days it was!

And then came the surprise part. Me and pandu decided to beat up the other fatso to the ground, but instead those 2 buffaloes tackled me to the ground and jumped on top of me - with their 360 pounds of solid mass :( Man, that hurt. But wait, there was more! As i ran to get the bugger pandu to the ground, i slipped, got entangled in the cone-pointed iron chain of the pavement and hurt my left foot terribly. People who watched laughed hysterically :P Well, even i would have if i were on the other side :D But sadly, things were different. So i struggled to my feet again...and we walked (i limped) to the ice cream wala to have some delicacy :) Somehow, i felt good that i hurt myself playing :P It rarely happens to our age group now.

I don't think I have enjoyed any other game more than this lately. We should play this game more often.

P.S. I am having a lot of fun these days and work is not good. I think some bad days are round the corner :)

Awesome thing # 55

2011-11-06T02:31:00.000+05:30

I made up for missing Metallica last week, by watching Sonu Nigam live in concert today :P Well, to be honest he was pretty awesome. Qutub Minar in the background, smokin awesome lighting and this guy with his band performing to some nice beats. Without a doubt he is a super singer and extremely talented. He even composed a song live on stage with the lyrics from the audience at that very moment! But the bugger did not sing a single song from his most amazing collection - Deewana. Nonetheless, we attended this and then went on to have the usually amazing Italian at Big Chill. No alchohol tonite and the night went awesome.

P.S. The crowd at khan market is always composed of 2 kinds of people. 1, babes with their dudes and 2, us. This has been happening now since forever! :( One day i will be there with my girlfriend..one day.

Awesome thing # 54 - No dues!

2011-10-31T02:45:00.000+05:30

Extension of my previous post. With the 2500 i gave back today, I cleared ALL MY DUES since feb this year, till today :) No more burden of thought of knowing you still have to pay something someone somewhere!

Awesome thing # 53 - Formula 1

2011-10-31T02:30:00.000+05:30

This has to go down as one of my best sundays in a long time. 3 things happened today

1. F1 Grand Prix. We were late in leaving by about 3 hrs. And when we hit the road, it looked like the whole of delhi was going to watch it. Was it that big a deal? Nonetheless, after crossing what i thought was a big jam, in noida, we skipped the main Greater Noida Expressway (touted as one of the best expressways connecting Delhi) and entered the service lane - for some unclear reason. Guess what, we skipped an entire stretch of massive 25km of jam on the expressway because of that, and drove at a 120kmph to reach our parking lot in flat 25 min!! (we got to know later that many remained struck in the jam and couldnt reach the circuit). From there, a bus took us to the circuit and then another to our stand. The race had started, 10 laps were gone and we missed the flagging by Sachin! :( Nevertheless, we could hear the engines of those monster cars revving from 200 meters outside the circuit and rushed in towards the track. What i saw just blew me away. In front of me, barely 10m from where i stood, was the gravel and then began the asphalt of the bend in front of our stand. And on it, revved monstrously the engines of F1 cars speeding at a ghastly 300kmph and zipping past us in fractions of seconds. The sound was deafening and the thrill, mindblowing! I could not believe cars being driven and controlled at such speeds. In 5 seconds of entering, my respect for the sport and drivers and the machine builders increased by leaps. Despite the speeds, we tracked all the drivers and their positions, witnessed track slips, overtakes, near accidents (though missed the hamiltion-massa clash) and yes, cheered the Force India team. We remained till the end of the 60 laps, as Vettel won, and walked back to our shuttle witnessing babes (super hot babes) and cars (super duper hot cars including Lamborghini Gallardo, Rolce Royce Ghost, Bentley Continental, Porche Panamera to name a few). Whew!! What an experience.

2. House break. After we picked my car we went to Piyush's house no 147 in Greater Noida, to replace a lock at his plot's main gate. We parked our car right at the gate and switched on the headlamps for a better view in the darkly lit lane. And in full glaring view, we both started to smash the already put up lock on the gate so as to break it and put the new lock. When we were done, some workers (working in and on the house) anxiously came running up and asked why we were breaking, to which we confidently replied that this was our house and you could carry on the work with the new key. After some phone calling (while i talked to those labourers), Piyush came up and asked them for directions to a market. He told them we'll be back in a while and sat in the car and asked me to drive us to the market. We'd hardly driven 10m, and this guy turned to me and said, "bhai galat ghar ka tala tod diya, bhaag!!" turns out, we broke into house #149 instead of #147 and by the time we had sat in the car, one of the workers had already called up its owner to confirm! Well, it was shit, and we just fled! :D

3. The after party. Aman's birthday treat it was and so, although i had already had a scuff with nipun and i (obviously) hate lakhot, i still decided to go (it was only the 4 of us). We sat at our usual, this time in CP, and surprisingly had fun! The music was good, i enjoyed the LIITs and the cocktail hookah and the discussions kept everyone talking. The icing was the cake which we got for Aman and it was amazingly delicious. But the best part for me was yet to come. When we left, i did 2 things which quite simply put, lightened my heart. One, gave back the 2500 i owed nipun and two, apologized for being rudely angry at him. You know, the hardest thing to say is 'sorry', specially when you can justify your behaviour. It's tough and well, i had to be a pussy and send a message! But well, i did apologize and whether or not i am forgiven, i felt light. (though it did not make me feel any better about how my faith was breached, but then somethings take time). I also learnt another thing today - "If you approach anything with the least, bare minimum expectation, you will always end up happier, surprised and satisfied." Who said it? Me!

Well, after all this roller coaster, I had a galla week. It can easily go down as one of the best i have had in a long time. And now it is time to approach the new week with the least, bare minimum expectation. :P

Awesome thing # 52 - Metallica concert, which got cancelled!

2011-10-29T01:56:00.003+05:30

How it happened is another story. But more interesting is how i got involved. Friday morning, 2 days after Diwali, i woke up lazily at 11 to a chilly morning and sat waiting for my sis for bhai dooj. When she came at 12:40, i was still not bathed! I got up, and as i went to the bathroom, my phone rang. Saxo had cancelled his plan of going to the concert and thought of asking me to use his ticket instead - a 2750/- pass. Suddenly, i had a spring in my step. I thought for about 5 seconds and said yes man! I was ready in my jeans and one of punky tees by 1:30, all set to leave. "Clients gaye bhaad me, resumes gaye chutti pe, Today is METALLICA DAY!!" closely describes what i felt then :D (btw, i had chosen not to go to the concert because of reasons of money, but somehow at that particular moment money was the last thing on my mind. Specially because I had just sold off my saturday's F1 ticket for a nice little amount :D) \m/

So, I talked to Piyush and left with him at 2. Rushed to the venue and collected my ticket from saxo's friend and on that way met at least 4 friends, already. Metallica was on baby! Now my tickets were for 2750/- and Piyush and Sumit's were of 1650/-. So i sold off the 2750/- one and got a 1650/- ticket with 1100/- profit :P Good day? Oh yes! Great day so far. It was 5 then and as we approached our gate, we saw some white skinned westerners drinking beer publicly - a crime for the brown skinned us, and thought why not man. Let's have some beer ourselves. 2 cans down and we would be all set to headbang with the band!! We went to a nearby and gulped 4 large ones! Man, we were all set and it was 6.

And thats when came the phone call. The concert was postponed :( to saturday :( :( "WTF! WTF! WTF! What the hell am i going to do with the ticket now?! Do i keep it and come back tomorrow or give it back to saxo? What if he wants to see the show tomorrow? and wtf, i sold his ticket of 2750!! How do i get That back?!! Why me??!! :(" is how my train of thought went then. Shit! We rushed to the venue and saw the ruckus. There were reports of hooliganism and the stage being set on fire. We saw some smoke alright, and the drums and keyboards were damaged. In fact a guy was carrying the keyboard high in his arms! Man, these delhi guys, they don't deserve a show. We left the scene with the crowd. There were some 28000 punks there, which included some of the best babes i have seen in the city!! It could've been an awesome concert man. The show was reportedly cancelled because of security reasons. Fuck Metallica. And Fuck the delhites. I guess we all have ourselves to blame. All the delhi rage went to the wild metal band as well, eh!

Nonetheless, we were not going to spoil our night this way. So we stacked up booze and went to Piyush's friend's house. The night thereafter, not to mention, was awesome :) As far as the live concert goes, well, we sang L.I.V.E. and headbanged to the songs of Rockstar in the car on our way back. Created a live concert of some sort ourselves. Who needs metallica now :D

Awesome thing # 51 - Diwali

2011-10-27T02:01:00.002+05:30

This was undoubtedly the best diwali of my life!! As someone somewhere put it - This Diwali kicked the ass of many previous ones ;) I soaked in every bit of diwaliness inside me this season - i shopped for stuff, i decorated my house with lights, i bought sweets, i cleaned my office cum bedroom, i burnt crackers and lit them in my hand (after like 10-15 years!), i had no tension of going to office in the morning or the next day or anyday and i was at peace with myself. I was happy. For the first time in many years, i was more happy than stressed at Diwali and by god i loved it.

Whatever tomorrow may bring, however fucked i or my environment may be, this Diwali of 2011 will go down as one when i did just one thing for the past 20 odd days with 'absolutely NOTHING' at the back of my head - Celebrate! :)

Awesome thing # 50 - I cleaned my room!

2011-10-23T02:40:00.002+05:30

I cleaned my room and i liked it :) Saturday i spent 7 hrs, from 12noon to 7pm, standing the entire time, without any food or water with only 1 mission - "thy room be cleaned before sunrise of the next day". and boy, when i was done did i get that rush of peace!! My room now is literally oozing tranquility from all sides :)

7 hrs is true. Sounds exaggerated but it isn't. I literally got scared when i first saw the room in the morning (i had already decided 2 days back that it was to be cleaned). I had no clue about where to start! Its a small room, only 12 by 8 feet i guess, with every single inch in a total mess - spider webs all over the place, filth in every hidden corner, dust on every tangible thing in the room. Fuck, i was living in this shithole for the past 2 years without ever cleaning more than my computer table. and worst of all, for the past 8 months (since i've been self-employed) i've been spending most of my time in this same room, working! I just couldn't believe my eyes when i saw this room today. Finally, after minutes of pondering, i started. Walls, windows, fan, cupboard, then the computer wires, floor and finally the computer table! phew!!! It was ecstasy when i was done. When i called mom to see what i had done, she almost cried out of happiness. She could not believe her eyes. I had FINALLY cleaned this room :)

Guess how i celebrated. By breaking a self made promise of not drinking :P 100 pipers and Absolut with 2 college friends to end the absolutely tiring day. Well, no complaints :)

Awesome thing # 49 - late night walks

2011-10-23T02:26:00.001+05:30

Last weekend was the first of many (8) weekends, that i actually did not see Chaman (as Amar is now fondly called :P), Pandu, Jain and Himanshu's face! But as i sat on the bed, digging my eyes into the laptop absolutely bored, i had but 1 choice - i called up amar and piyush and begged them "Lets go somewhere, man..i am BORED!!". We caught up again, but just the 3 of us, and went to have some egg dishes of a popular andewala nearby. Soon health became the topic of discussion and we decided to start with late night walks and early morning jogging.

While the jogging did happen only once in the past week, the late night walks have started fully. and i enjoy them a lot. Well for one, i get to tell someone what i did my entire day (i hope it was some beautiful lady i told that to rather than 2 hairy men :P). We discuss whats happening in our lives and how to screw each others boss and the lady we're after (both in different sense of course :P). Future, career, news, happenings, weekend trips, activities (we recently thought of starting a sports club..though never talked of it again!) all happen. and if we are on time, a pan or a banta adds to the flavour of the night :)

Awesome thing # 48 - Anjum's wedding

2011-10-13T00:45:00.001+05:30

After 7 consecutive weekends of walking and tiredly searching for the right 'black' kurta for anjum's wedlock day, getting it stitched, altered, madeover, and in the process gaining 10 kgs eating all kinds of yummy crap kamla nagar has to offer our delhi bellies, and because of this again getting the kurta altered, the day of the wearing finally arrived. Yesterday - 11th day of October 2011. As excited as school boys going on a field trip, we hardly slept the last night so as to catch our shatabdi on time. Reached Ludhiana and I felt the Punjab air in my head as we made our way to our hotel. and as true punjabbbis do, we started of our sojourn with chilled beer. no snacks, no food, Beer first! :D We were 8 of us in that room and what followed the next 2 hrs was pure awesomeness :) then peaceful sleep of another 2 hrs.

Now i am not of those who like to sleep around (pun intended :P) in a new city. So, as soon as the sun set behind the buildings and water tanks, i slipped out with 2 friends to explore the streets of ludhiana, spot punjabi babes and in-time have some chaat as well :D and so i did without disappointment. Ludhiana is a rich land, that i also found out.

Then it was time for the wedding. and out came the toil of those 7 weeks. Our shining black kurtas and jutis :) Coincidentally the other 2 guys in our company also wore black suits and when we started posing for photos i realized we were actually resembling black pathan commandos more than dulha's friends! After briefly paying respects to Johnny Walked ji, we headed for the baraat, which was a little disappointing. The guy's christian family did not seem too interested in hindu traditions (it was an inter caste love marriage) and all we did was rush to the venue. Still, we had our share of frolic and after round 2, we were all set to burn the dj floor. Back at the hotel room after 2 hrs, we had another 3 hrs to sleep and catch our train back to delhi. Some 1 hr of bc later we slept and well, came back!

Although, the wedding ceremony did not provide as much of a hungama as we had hoped for, we did have fun and did what we came for. This was our little break from the drabness of delhi and the trip to ludhiana gave us a memory to cherish for a lifetime - this photo :)

Sadda Haq!!

2011-10-02T01:46:00.000+05:30

Well, for starters, I had a seriously awesome night. Without booze! Old friends, and a lot lot lot of crap and bullshit ;) but i will not get into that. It is time for some serious thing :P and so i will start...

Whatever relationship (and by relationship i don't just mean love and friendships) you might be in, there is one rule you need to understand. The other person is not there for your bull shit! So whether you have a short term association with someone, or a long term partnership or an everlasting friendship, whether it is your business partner or your spouse or your dearest friend, you need to learn to give back a little, if not as much, as you take. By not acknowledging, by not responding and by not returning you are seriously fucking the other person. He will take it once, he will take it twice, but he will not take it the third time my friend.

Now, the argument. You will say why acknowledge? If your friend is so dear, why does it even matter? Well i will tell you why. People have one basic nature - expectation. They expect. Whether it is your parents, or your friends or your boss, they all expect something from you. THAT, is the only reason why they are putting up with you. That expectation can as simple as a mere laughter you share, but that is expectation alright and you need to understand that. Your parents expect you to take care of them when they are old, and that is why you are being taken care of now. Heck, that is why you were born in the first place! They keep you happy, so you could keep them happy. They put up with your bull shit, your crap because they expect you to deliver at some point in life. Your best friend deals with all your troubles, your mugging and cribbing so you would deal with his. He would expect you to. The reason why you stay with your friend is because you have a good time together...because you expect to have a good time together, you expect him to make you laugh and to make that hangout worthwhile for you. That is the reason you will spend time with him. If that expectation is not fulfilled, your togetherness will cease. and that is the reason, you have some friends and some 'people you know', because you do not enjoy with the 'people you know', because they do not fulfill your expectation. Do i even need to tell you why your boss puts up with your crap and why you put up with his?!

So, the thing is simple. Give and Take. keeps everyone interested, keeps everyone happy. Start to acknowledge, start to respond, because people around you, people close to you expect you to. A simple acknowledgement brings a lot of joy :)

Bad day for business, Awesome day for life ;) - #47

2011-09-24T02:02:00.003+05:30

"Things only get interesting when you take full responsibility for the choices you make."

If this statement goes true, my life at the moment is interesting as hell. Yesterday, as my mom dad left for a tour to southern India, my phone rang to the call of another Placement Head i had sent my proposal to. and voila..finally i had an audience!! Somebody..finally somebody..thought we might be the guys for their college and decided to call us up for a meeting. And so, my whole of thursday was spent preparing for the meeting, writing a well-defined 'new' proposal, taking copies and making files and rehearsing answers to questions that may be thrown out of the blue! Came friday and i was all set. Laptop, posters, visiting cards, my notebook, the files, the proposals, the pd (with some awesome songs and a copy of the proposal in case a wind blew away the ones in my hand :P) and my car keys (remember, my dad's away ;) )

A 45km drive on a butter of an 11AM road, the gurgaon-delhi expressway left me all smiles. What a start to the lovely sunny breezy friday. My buddy came along, in a tee and i had him change back to a shirt after giving him a tirade of abusings. and then came our destination. Lovely friday staff, beautiful receptionist, nice cosy meeting room. After a 30min wait, came the Placement head with his bag. and THAT MOMENT WAS THE END OF ALL THE GOOD THINGS OF THE DAY SO FAR! :(

What followed was a 90 minute blabbering of non-sensical horse shit out of his mouth, obviously kissing his white and black moustaches on its way to our ears. He just spoke and spoke and after countering him a first 100-200 times, i too finally gave up, and all we were left doing was nodding heads, with whispers of "Yes Sir" and "Sure Sir" in between. Fuck you ass! We breathed a sigh of relief the moment we left his shadow, and although the prospect seems bright to me even now, i secretly vowed not to do any business with his Poschim Bonga ass!

So, all my secret castles, which i did make on that thursday evening, thinking about the money i would be making, and the cars i will be buying and the babes i will be %&^&ing :P, came crashing down at probably the same time on friday. What an interesting life :P

But well, a man's got to do what he's got to do. and so without letting any of this ruin my idea of the perfect friday that i had planned, i went and had a pretty mind blowing lunch with a friend, met a couple old friends (and got a compliment later on..i just love it absolutely when a girl goes gaga over me :D) and finally used my Zomato coupons for an amazing treat of LIITs and snacks - ABSOLUTELY FREE!! :)

The awesome part of the day? The drive to and back from gurgaon in my luxury sedan with the best music playing. :)

Awesome thing # 46

2011-09-20T01:06:00.000+05:30

Without a doubt amar is the person i would credit for my knowledge of atleast 50% of eateries and pubs i know today in delhi! had he not been, i would have still figured out, but then the chicken and egg debate can go on..so let me just give him all that is due (though, i hope the egomaniac bastard never reads this!). So, out of the best pubs he took me to, Route4 is my favorite. Of, the roadside eateries, the ande wala (remember the cheeze mayo jalandari :P) is the best. and among chaat, it is the gujrati shop at kamla nagar. and his Sev Puri is pure Awesomeness. Heavenly. Luscious. take my word, have it!

So when, we were done kurta shopping this sunday, (we finally bought our 5 exactly similar kurtas :D) we went to this gujrati and again indulged in the mix of sumptuousness and yumminess :) and that my friend, was the best part of the day ;)

Awesome thing # 45 - Oreo!

2011-09-17T01:19:00.000+05:30

Wow. What a rocking day! What a fucked up day! :( Now this is the real test. I tried my hand at about 5 different things today. Started fine with all of them. Fell flat on my face before i could finish! This friday of this 9th month sucked as bad as it could have.

Let me try to figure out where was i at fault today. I woke up to an absolutely mind boggling awesome weather. Had no plans to seriously work on the friday. Was totally on for my tennis game in the evening. Had no plans of any interaction with the opposite sex today. and was damn sure i had to spend the night out with friends. Work sucked. Tennis sucked, couldn't play. The spontaneous confabulation turned into a disaster. why did i even call!! and the last thing..well, i screwed that up myself for sure.

So, what was the awesome thing about it. The best part is with such a day, a small awesome thing makes itself clearly visible! So here it goes. Hold your breath...

The most awesome thing about today was Oreo, mixed with whipped vanilla flavored cream and nuts along with some hot chocolate which made up the newly launched Mc Flurry at Mc Donalds. :D I can bet my ass it was the most amazing shake cum ice cream cum whatever it was i have ever had. Hell, it was better than the Big Chill Oreo Shake i am crazy about. Wow. It was awesome!

Zomatooooo!!

2011-09-16T01:50:00.011+05:30

To all those five-ten readers I have, guys this post is dedicated to Zomato. Zomato, who?. So, while my blog talks about what goes on in my life, this is my greedy side, in an attempt to make it better..with an iPad :P :D

Zomato (if you have not heard of it, get a (foodie) life!) is the place where you can find everything about food, and very recently about various events as well. Originally foodiebay, zomato is more than just a restaurant guide and probably the best place to select a place if you are not sure where to go and eat next! So, now you know Zomato who :) Now the rest of the blog talks about a small feedback for Zomato. Here goes..

Now, I am in love with this stuff. Zomato rocks truly and i had just one thing to say when it came to what i like about Zomato. It is awesome! For the things i want you to improve, i found 6! :D Explains a lot about loving relationships, doesnt it ;)

the 4 good things

1. I love zomato's interface. Specially the colors. The site is fast as well! and the new Events section somehow compliments the restaurant guide. I coudnt find anything missing with the events section. The "POPULAR ON ZOMATO - DELHI NCR" section on the front page is good.

2. Your marketing initiatives - passes for featured reviews, iPad for feedbacks, are extremely good and impressive. Btw, congrats on the recent funding by InfoEdge!

The good part

3. The filters you guys show with the list of restaurants is just too good. :) I love all the information in that list. It becomes really easy to search.

4. Your staff (whoever deals with customer care) is very friendly.

the 7 things you could improve

1. Wouldn't it be nice, if along with the reviews of restaurants, you also showed what dishes were good. Sort of a "RECOMMENDED DISHES" section. Many a times, first timers to an italian or a french restaurant would not know what to order. The section could be categorized into veg and non veg. Even the square slideshow on the first page. Instead of showing images of random dishes, you could probably show some recommended dishes which upon clicking would take you to the restaurant page on Zomato itself.

Shift 'em up!

2. You have a "HOT Restaurants Today" section on the front page. Should it not be above than where it is right now? People who come to the site will be looking for a restaurant, right? and this info should be right under the nose of the visitor. Probably where "featured reviews" is. You should remove the "Our Editors" section from there! Its not serving any purpose. Again, shift the "Newly Added Menus" up as well!

3. Could we have "Zomato recommended Restaurants" as well?

Shift 'em down!

4. How about some "ZOMATO COUPONS/discounts/free desserts"? We could use them at popular restaurants.

5. You guys advertise on Coffee News. Why not start with that kind of a 2/multi colored sort of a newsletter..start with a 4 page only and circulate it among popular eateries like pizza hut, dominoes, subway, mcdonalds etc. only. At times restaurants will not agree with your rankings for them. So they may not want your circular on their tables, but McD, Dominoes, PD..they won't mind. They already know why people come there, a zomato guide cant hurt them.

6. Blog more often. It would increase your visibility with google and make you more SERP friendly. I would like Zomato to be above any timescity or similar restaurant guide. In fact why not have a Zomato restaurant guide published!!

7. Add a TRAVEL or TOURISM section. This section can tell readers about weekend getaways, details of how to get there, hotels to stay and their reviews, adventure camps taking place, etc. etc. etc. :)

Awesome thing # 44 - workout and eggs

2011-09-16T01:17:00.000+05:30

The best thing about a work-less, enthusiasm-less boring day is my workout. I do it not often, hardly once or twice a week but the kind of high i get once i'm done..is matchless. I usually run and do some mild exercise. That's it, that's my workout. But the running part is intense. You know, i was not born very athletic and so i have to try very very hard to stay in shape. My arms are not so strong, neither are my legs. I eat a lot of junk as well, and so this exercising part becomes all the more important.

So with all these constraints, i run. With all the might i have. and after i am done running, (well, i try to outdo my previous best everytime), and after my legs have started to yield to gravity, and after it is not even easy to breathe, i experience that state of euphoric flying. It is awesome. I have to go through hell to feel it, i have to push myself over and over, keep murmuring just one lap more, just one lap more, while my music player stops making any sense and there's just one thing on my mind - to stop running. But, what excitement. :)

and this monday, while i was at it..my ol' buddy joined me. He didn't run with me, he's a software guy (find the correlation :P). But after the sojourn, we decided to go have some eggs. So we went to this small khopcha of a place, with some of the finest egg dishes in the whole world (i can bet on that). and guess what we had first, Cheese Mayonnaise Jallandari (a specialty from our guy) :D Its mere mention waters my mouth right now. So, much for the exercising :)

Awesome thing # 43 - Murthal

2011-09-12T00:44:00.000+05:30

Another day. another plan. and a healing of my bruised ego :) That romit can not make the plan and he should not mess with me was all that i was out to prove and did i not do it. Makes me feel good. I am not a proud fella and i have the smallest of ego, but by god it hurts when someone takes it for granted. For once, the guy kept his mouth shut and quietly accepted defeat and i am happy i went ahead and made the plan of the 4 of us to murthal. So, the war was won, without a drop of bloodshed. We didnt have to cancel. Aman had to miss out though, but then it was a war today :P

The rest is a cliched series of awesome events. We drove all the way, lots of bakar all the way. My tee matched exactly the staff of the dhaba we ate at, and yes i am sure i was confused with those guys on multiple occasions and made fun of :P Of course, we had some delicious paranthas, and kulfis and lots and lots of 'sirke wale pyaaz' ;) Then, some photos and some walks later we drove on the super cool NH1 in the beautiful weather with our window glasses down and beautiful music playing, only gazing out the window at the almost full moon in the blue night. :)

Awesome thing # 42 - Relativity

2011-09-12T00:31:00.002+05:30

A small 'take your time out and give it to someone else' by you can do wonders for that someone. I was that someone and the small gesture was that little over 20 min chat with my bestest friend :) well, the friend was a 'she' and so this post qualifies under awesomeness :D Whether the chat was spontaneous or intended to make me feel good (i was not particularly in my best mood this day), it did the best thing to me - brought the big grin back :D

An overstated quote by Einstein comes to my mind, “Put your hand on a hot stove for a minute, and it seems like an hour. Sit with a pretty girl for an hour, and it seems like a minute. THAT'S relativity.” or so i experienced it. Damn, that hour had to pass.

Awesome thing # 41 - Chandni Chowk

2011-09-11T15:22:00.000+05:30

Burrrrppp!!! Back from chandni chowk, on another kurta hunt, which once again ended in a failure. but what did not end up as a failure was the food and bakar. Pandu, me and jain this time, we had chhole bhature (5), tikki, kachoris, Rabri, lassi, masala paneer, gol gappe and a lot of air and water to go with it. burrrppp!! excuse me for doing it again. My stomach is so damn full right now..burrrppp!! I am sorry again :P the only thing which can cure it now is whiskey. we discussed and came to a conclusion that a 150ml whiskey at night will give you the most awesome crap of your life in the morning. Well, time to try it ;)

Awesome thing # 40 - fucked up day..amazing night

2011-09-11T04:10:00.000+05:30

What a fucked up day man. All because of the assiness of romit. The fucker doesn't know what he wants but is ready to blame others (read me). All he did, and will keep on doing, is spoil his own days and parties.

So, while the plan to murthal was getting cancelled, i was out with my schooliya friends shopping for some kurtas. Now, we have decided about wearing same kurtas for Anjum's wedlock. 5 of us :D and so it was necessary that all 5 of us agreed on what is to be worn that day. It sounds tough, but let me tell you its a lot tougher with these guys man. We spent 5-6 hours and couldn't zero on that 1 piece we all were ready to dorn. So we bought some belts and came back home :P

and then began the night. some unexpectedly, me, nip and lakhot decided to crash route04, yet again, and what a night did we enjoy. Pastas, omelettes, bongs, LIITs, wat not. Our daredevil nip even got the guts to order a drink for a damsel in a pretty short skirt sitting across us. He got dumped from the same distance though :P Lakhot paid my bill (for reasons of an old loan) and i had the whole 20km of rain washed, brightly reflected road to zip, zap and zoom my luxury sedan at 120kph back home. What i call a jhakaas end to the night ;)

Awesome thing # 39 - Sunny Monday

2011-08-30T22:55:00.001+05:30

What a beautiful monday i had. The only thing that could've made it better would have been a female accompanying me rather than bikki!

With an almost null of Monday blues i have these days, i was called for lunch by my ol' pardner of evs at IHC and for lack of work, i sure did agree. It was a splendid sunny day, a little hot though and i visited the notorious Lodhi Garden and its forts or tombs which looked absolutely marvelous in the backdrop of white clouds and tall bright green trees. and of course, i did spot a couple of couples behind the trees having their share of fun as the week began :) Once at ihc, we went to the American Diners and had some pancakes along with a delicious pasta with an amazingly good ice tea. Talk was limited and i liked that.

The place, ihc, is such a stress buster, such a relaxer that you could actually spend your anytime of the day there..even alone. We left for home after seeing some paintings and i came back to spend a rather quiet monday at home too. Beautiful, peaceful. :)

Startups

2011-08-28T00:09:00.001+05:30

Startups will only work when your team has competitive and smart people, who are smarter and competitiver than you. Else, all enthusiasm, all energy, and all effort will die down and be wasted eventually.

A day that couldn't be awesome, a night that just fell short..

2011-08-27T11:49:00.005+05:30

Friday was supposed to be a dreadful day. At least that's what i thought when i woke up, extremely pessimistic. The only good thing, i had hoped to myself, was going to be the lunch i had planned with the same old combo of the ugly man and the pretty damsel. Apart from this, all i was going to do the whole day was run around in Gurgaon, on feet and autos, meeting heads and discussing proposals and probably getting rejected. And I was almost sure that the night's get together at Vikas's would be as dull as the last time. And so with these thoughts, I left home, 2 hrs later than when i was supposed to.

Turns out, the worst thing about the day was the lunch! :(

While, i spoiled both their lunches for sure (and consequently mine), neither did i have to run around on feet or autos in Gurgaon, nor did i face rejection (well, at least no downright ones) :) Of the 10 i had shortlisted, i visited only 4 schools, because traffic snarls, but in an a\c car with music blasting. 3 of them showed encouragement and 1, hope. My day had begun. I left vershney's car at the office and then ate his lunch, so he would be spared the rod by his wife, and then met a lot of old acquaintances by accident. and then it was party time.

We reached at Vikas's at around 8 and surely in another 2 hrs, it was the 11 of us. What followed was food, drinks and a laugh riot and more food, drinks and more riots. I did impress everyone again with the flaming shots :D and i was happily complimented by one of the girls in the party ;)

then, nainy spoke and the rest..became history. We had to leave the awesomeness, that was becoming of the room, to head home in the darkness of the night.

Awesome thing # 38 - Delhi Darshan

2011-08-23T01:11:00.001+05:30

I didn't know it was spelled as Jaynie. All i called her the whole day was Jenny, and it sounded better too! Amar's sister's friend from the US wanted to do a dilli darshan, and I was selected to do the needful. I picked her up at 10:30 AM, on a very hot and humid thursday and as somewhere down inside of me i knew i am not good with women, I had asked Ankur to join in, so i am not ridiculed after the trip. 10 minutes with the lady in the metro, i realized calling Ankur was not a very smart move :P i had already started having a good time! Nonetheless, we started off with Lotus Temple, and went to Qutub. Lunch was had at the royal Moti Mahal of Daryaganj (sumptuous food), while Jenny enjoyed the rickshaw rides in the streets of chandni chowk and chawri bazar. We then took her to Jama Masjid and ate the famous Rabri Faluda of Giani at Khari Baoli in Chandni Chowk for desert. I was still tempting to eat the gol gappe, but then i ignored the urge.

Then we went to see the Akshardham temple, what we later on came to call a mini amusement park with a flavor of religion and nothing more! Spent a fortune on the tickets (well i was the only one paying :( ) but got to see some nice fountain show (with a sucking background music) and a great boat ride. My advise: don't buy the tickets for the movie they show. We also met a very enthusiastic old man who was perhaps more fascinated with the concept of Akshardham than he has ever been with anything. But i did get to know some new things from him.

The day came to an end and we left for home. But not before i had a plate of gol gappe and let the lady had some as well ;) well, she liked them and on our way back all we discussed about was food food and more food. And of course i learnt about the concept of couch surfing, which maybe i will do some day! and then came the best part. When i dropped her home, i got a very nice, warm, tight hug. Well, i have never got one, and so needless to say..i absolutely loved it :D

the day was never over yet. how could the bugger amar, let go another opportunity to show his extrovertial skills :) so, he threw a small party at @Live in CP and we (me, him and her) went and had a nice new (for us) wheat beer - Paulaner. Well, after spending a good bit of money in the evening, i didn't mind free drinks!

A day well spent? Absolutely!! :)

Awesome thing # 37 - Anna Hazare and some beer

2011-08-23T00:48:00.002+05:30

When i went kite flying on Independence Day and ended up playing cricket on the terrace all the while having a great time, little had i thought where the next day would be taking me. While Anna Hazare was arrested into prison on 16th august, and the whole nation, and more so Delhi, thrown into a turmoil of protest of magnanimous proportion, I was quietly having my breakfast watching some english flick. and then i decided to go and join the protest. Somehow i didnt like the arrested part of the news.

As i reached the Chattrasal complex, it was easy to see how mad the people actually were. Needless to say, I had never ever in my whole life seen a movement as this. It was huge, and it was scary. and more than me, i found it was the police that were scared. There was an uproar on 'jail bharo' and while i logically wanted to stay out of that, i did not want to miss being a part of this protest as well. I might not agree with lokpal, but certainly i was a big fan of arvind kejriwal and his words were enough to convince me that the lokpal was the only way this government could be taught a lesson.

Now, i dont actually agree with it completely, but then the country is going down badly..it's falling apart in fact..and with a controversy we ourselves at home are engaged in, i feel all the more needy about bringing this fuckin corruption to a swift end. So, i shouted slogans and when Ankur joined me at the stadium, we decided to show our solidarity by going to India Gate for some candle march.

Well, it was childish alright, but then..who cared. There were beautiful women there carrying candles :P and on the way, we did have some KFC burgers. and when the protest or the candle light march ended, we did go to Route 4 and gulped a few beers along with delicious pasta. and well, you might say it was shameful of us to do all that while there was a guy who was fighting with us, i will argue by saying we did protest but we had never decided on a hunger strike. We were still with Anna, but if Route 4 decided to honor me by giving me a 'Prevelidge Diner's Card' for being a loyal member that very day, i'd say..why refuse :)

Awesome thing # 36

2011-08-14T02:06:00.000+05:30

What started as a very early drab day with a visit to the winter-time court (for some reason) and was soon turning into an extremely boring one, became one of the most awesome days of the week. Not within 5 minutes of switching my laptop on, i received a delighted client's delighted feedback along with a happy news of winning 1000Rs vouchers from one restaurant review website (I had written 7 reviews one fine night for them, without any monetary greed of-course, of which one got selected). Now, even though i have not got any vouchers yet and even though i don't even care that i will, this made me very very happy as it had been 26 years since i had ever won anything like this! :)

The day continued to be great as i spent my evening in the company of a Tennis racquet and Wilson4 balls and some great shot play :)

In the word's of Rosesh...Whooppieeeeeeee!!!! :D

Awesome thing # 35

2011-08-11T01:04:00.001+05:30

Well, Sukhdev might be getting some foodie hotties, but the hottest chicks come to Gulati's 8-), where i dined today with my mom, dad and my brother. After a very long time. I eat vegetarian delicacies and the Lachcha Onions with spicy Paneer Hyderabadi, and Subz Mela were enough to create a flood of water in my mouth! What an awesome dinner :)

Happy Friendship Day - Awesomeness in Kasauli

2011-08-10T02:16:00.003+05:30

You know the best part about best friends? They don't listen to you. So even though I didn't want to go for what turned out to be one of my best trips, I went! and it went like this. After 3 months of blissful (as told to everyone) marriage, vershney's better half finally had enough of him and decided to stay away for a couple weeks. Vershney too siezed the moment and off we (along with saxo and manglik) went to kasauli to spend the weekend in the luckily super amazing weather. It was a road trip baby!

From paranthas at sukhdev (alongside some hot chiks; somehow you will always find hottie foodies there!), to fighting over getting the steering of the Ritz, to driving on the hill with an overcast weather, to reaching kasauli with drizzle and less than 10m visibility at 6000ft, the trip had just started. The night was spent laughing hysterically (my stomach still pains just at the thought of it) in a luxurious room in an unexpected place, with a bottle of whiskey and flaming shots of vodka (the way we welcomed the so called friendship day) to go with the best biryani I have EVER had! and just before we retired to bed, there was enough time to awaken the entire hotel by ringing car alarms in the parking and running off madly into our beds without a clue :D and did i mention the best sunset I have ever seen, standing at the top of the mountain with nothing between you and the sun, except emptiness and the horizonal mountains? Well, now i did :)

and how could a trip to the hills end, without a trek to an unexplored top! We did find another amazing view and a jungle and of course some snake holes. And yes, just in time we got a gift for vershney as well!

Well, a beautiful trip. and a memorable one. :)

P.S. Thats Awesome Things #27 - #34 for you. Count yourself ;)

Start Living

2011-08-10T01:51:00.002+05:30

I have to start this blog with these amazing lines

दिलो में तुम अपनी बेताबियाँ लेकर चल रहे हो तो जिन्दा हो तुम
नजर में ख्वाबों की बिजलिया लेकर चल रहे हो तो जिन्दा हो तुम
हवान की झोकों के जैसे आजाद होके जिन्दा रहना सीखों
तुम के दरियां के लहरों के जैसे बहना सीखों
हर एक लम्हे से तुम मिलो खोलें अपनी बाहें
हर एक पल एक नया समा देखे ये निगाहें
जो अपनी आखों में हैरानिया लेकर चल रहे हो तो जिन्दा हो तुम
दिलो में तुम अपनी बेताबियाँ लेकर चल रहे हो तो जिन्दा हो तुम

If you carry dreams in your eyes, you are alive. If you carry impatience in your heart, you are alive. If you carry surprise in your eyes, you are alive.

Yes, I am alive.

Everytime i watch this masterpiece from Zoya Akhtar, I feel alive. Today, i spent some more money and watched it for the third time! The movie evokes so many emotions from within. So many.

It always takes a movie or a song or a speech by someone else to actually make us realize how we feel from within, what is it that is troubling us and to question, 'do we really have the courage to stand up against it?' Well, we do. All of us do. but as a friend today put it on his social networking page - "zindagi ka sabse bada rog...'kya kahenge log?!'" :) I think it's high time people learn to start living life their way. Start doing what makes you happy. because one day, one day my friends, that honda civic in your garage won't matter to you. and what will, you will have left far far behind. Either don't live to see that day, or start living.

Awesome thing # 26

2011-08-01T02:26:00.000+05:30

I watched one of my most favorite movies for the 2nd time in a row, for free, with coke and popcorn, without paying a single dime. That was 5PM. Then I went for a play, and then had dinner, for free and a wonderful super awesome dessert, for free. I was also driven to all the venues mentioned above and back home, you guessed it, for free. Do i even need to say, how my day went? :)

Awesome thing # 25

2011-07-25T23:53:00.001+05:30

Life is not going too well at the moment. But, awesomeness finds a way to creep into my sad story ;)

So, between a pretty boring last week and an enormously boring sunday came the saturday. I met my EVS buddies (Amit n Dheeraj, both of whom have now left the sucker that place was :P) and shared a couple beers and some quality Chinese food at CP on a rainy evening in Delhi. Me and Amit made a plan to attend Dheeraj's wedding together in december and start quest on a new business proposal the coming saturday. God knows if it will materialize, but with the McD chocolate softserve after the food and an auto ride back home in the beautiful weather, all i hardly cared for...was nothing! :)

9 Lessons from Business

2011-07-22T14:26:00.001+05:30

I can vouch for the fact the starting a business is the single most exciting thing in the world. I mean really, if you want some excitement with your life, start a business. There'll be challenges, back stabbings, achievements, downfalls, riches, bankruptcies, 10 new friends, 100 new enemies :), you'll see it all.

and while, 6 months into setting up my own establishment, I am still groping with the righteousness of my decision, I am proud to say that every day of this half an year journey has brought a new learning for me, some of which i present below.

Learning 1. Importance of a good team. You might be having the greatest business idea ever, it will not work unless you have a great team. A single wrong individual in the founding team of your business plan has the potential of ruining the whole setup, all because of the trust you place. You need to trust each other because that is important when you start; but trusting the right set of people will create the difference between success and failure.

2 of my plans failed because i chose the wrong guys to work alongside me. They never shared the vision, never gave enough time and kept assuring me that they will bounce back, but never did.

So choose the right guys, people who share your vision and are willing to go all the way to make it possible. and more importantly choose the people who are as passionate as you are but have different set of skills than you. Then you will make a great team.

Learning 2. Baniya-logy. This is an Indian learning. You need to have a 'baniya' in your team. Now, this is not frivolous; i mean it. This particular race of people are misers and will go to any extent possible to save that 10 paisa you might be tempted to spend. A baniya will make sure your expenses stay curbed, and if you're outsourcing something and paying for it, the baniya will stay up at night and make it for you himself. :)

My present business idea is still up and running because of this baniya i have alongside me. and yes, we've saved a lot of cash all thanks to his miserliness.

Learning 3. Never give away freebies. Freebies remove the trust from your products. Give a Trial Version or a 'limited number of days Trial', if you so may..but never give your products for free.

Learning 4. Never price your products according to your whims. Again, trust from your products will be lost. Analyze your competitors' products or similar services in the market and price intelligently. (Don't just price a 100 bucks less than your competition because that would mean that your client needs to pay only 100 more to get a renowned service!)

Learning 5. You are not here to make friends. Mostly you will be dealing with people who don't know you or who don't like you. These will be the guys who will also offer to help you. and when you start, it is help that you want from all sources.

So, whenever you take help in terms of finances or resources or even simple testimonials, keep a record in writing. Exchange a mail with the benefactor seeking his approval or have an agreement signed. Because if you don't, you won't believe it happening when some of your trusted 'benefactors' actually come lashing at you at a later time.

Learning 6. Build trust of your clients. A delighted client speaks good of you everywhere he goes and refers your product to every person he meets. Delight your clients, by going that extra mile; they'll love it. It will always bring you extra business.

Learning 7. Keep your best friends out of your business idea. There are many reasons to it. One, they're your best friends and 'learning 5' does not go down well with it; you will lose the friendship. Two, if you fail and get stuck in dire straits, it is your best friends who will come and help you. Three, you can always ask them for money without any interest or written agreements; they are probably the only guys who will trust you and if you cannot (are seriously not able to) repay they will be okay with that.

Learning 8. Read. You do not know what all is happening in this world. When you start reading, a magazine or a book or just blogs, you will find out 1005 new technologies which can make your business plan simple to execute or 23410 new people/mentors/forums which can help you out with queries on your start up.

Learning 9. Wait before you go public. Discuss your idea in the forums or with mentors, but don't make it public on your FB page or twitter before you are pretty sure that, 'OK, its going good now.' It will add a lot of character to you and your startup when people in your network find out about it through some other source or through a news clipping and see it as established.

Dhanaulti (Part II) - Awesome things 21-24

2011-07-20T01:05:00.020+05:30

The view that made the trip worth it

Finally, I got a much needed break.

A gage cab driver, a yellow number plate (read commercial) cab (which unnecessarily cost us 600bucks more), my college senior (because of him and his adventure-prem i actually planned this trip), 2 of my college classmates (one, my nemesis on the cricket field and the other in the photography department), another friend (who strangely agreed at the last moment to join us) and I, left for the green and wet grassland hills of Massoorie and Dhanaulti in the wee hours of saturday while a spectacular weather took stop on our hometown itself.

Some 8 hours later, we were not disappointed. While me and Aman knew what it would be like, we both were relieved to find the untouched beauty and serenity of the place still pure and that our decision of getting everyone else up here didn't earn us any abuse :D (awesomeness)

Dhanaulti was just the way i had left it 3 years ago - divine. All it had was absolutely green grass, and wetness..everywhere! My eyes were set straight on the treks we would be doing and with Aman and Ankur to give me company, my vacation had begun. As for the other 2 'adventure seekers' who were also carrying the costliest cameras among us (one a 28k and the other 35k worth), they were here for photography and they hated well..treks. :) Quite ironical huh - photographers who hate to walk :P So we dealt a pact, that we won't stop for people who were left behind...suited me just fine :)

After making everybody walk more than what was intended, meeting 8 Jaats topless dancing in the mountains to the tune of munni badnaam hui and drinking BP, handing them our only water bottle (for fear of being beaten up as when i approached them, none of the 4 bastards came up alongside me..infact the 2 photographers completely ignored the acquaintance!!), coming back to our hotel only to find one of the Jaat back there recognizing me and offering me a bottle of BP :), and a hot plate of maggi noodles (nothing can beat maggi on a mountain), we finally rested in our room to open our own stock. (awesomeness) After the overgrown mosquitoes (there were some evolved varieties of them in our room. Trust me, in some billion years from now, there will be mosquitoes as large as there were dinosaurs) were squashed by some towel and chappal stunts, we decided it was time for eggs and a toast.

There was vodka, there was scotch and there was Nipun. After convincing everyone that he has grown up on his drinking habits now and that he would only be taking scotch, the guy fell on the bed after his second small and fell ill. And while the rest of us 4 laughed our guts out for the rest of the night, he found it more amusing to keep himself busy with his cellphone. So much for coming up at 10,000 feet for a break from technology!

View from Surkanda Devi @10k feet

One of the many spectacular views from the trek

The next morning saw so many more treks. Even the usual Ma Surkanda Devi trek was detoured by me and Ankur to take some off tracks all the way to the temple. We had fun. The view was majestic from up there. After we came down, we decided to embark on another not-known trek, a very steep one. When the photographers decided to skip this one, for the sake of their safety, they had no idea what they were about to miss. What we saw from when we reached the top of the mountain, was the reason why cameras had to be brought up there! It was a spectacular view of Nothing! (awesomeness) It's like when you see a beach for the first time. There was the ground on which we walked, and then it vanished. An abyss and following it emptiness. for all that you can see. till your eyes take you. Deep in the horizon i think i spotted a river snaking up. There were small mountains, there were clouds and there was a valley too. It was, as i call it, Awe-mazing! So, while the photographers missed it, I took a lot of photos :)

Massoorie showed us why she is the queen afterall!

Then, we left for massoorie and some kempty falls, which was pretty boring. Up in massoorie and in our hotel room, once again it was time for a toast and the same Nipun story repeated :) The rest of us 4..by god, we had fun! (awesomeness)

Morning after, we left for the desert back. and once back, i spent 3 days coming out of depression (and the temporary end of awesomeness) :P

Awesome thing # 20

2011-07-07T02:45:00.000+05:30

You are planning a weekend getaway with friends and none of the fuckers seem ready. Then one agrees and you two decide to go ahead on your own. "Fuck the others!" and then the third says yes and then the fourth and then the fifth one too! and you suddenly have a gang that's ready to hit the hills!
Now regardless of how the trip ends up, the very coming-together of ol' college buddies is in itself Awesome :)

Awesome thing # 19

2011-07-07T02:41:00.001+05:30

You know the most awesome thing about work. I am talking about work that you do for someone else. It ends! and after you've literally slogged your ass off for 4 days on a project, and you come back to your workstation on the 5th day and find the work finished and delivered, and you realize that you are finally free to do your own shit for at least that one day..no prizes for guessing how you feel. AWESOME!

Awesome thing # 18

2011-07-07T02:38:00.001+05:30

A feeling of longing can be best gotten rid of by involving yourself in an diametrically opposite activity. For me that is playing tennis. :) I suck at tennis, to be honest. but when i see the Wimbledon finals between the two best players in the world, i get turned on. So much so, that i want to spend the rest of my life playing and learning this game and who knows, maybe playing for the country one day :P

anyways, so that's 1 sport i have picked up lately. The second one i tried picking up is swimming. the moment i saw the pool, i dropped the idea! Fuck, i am scared of water as hell. Why should i learn how to swim, anyways? There is enough land on earth for me to stay away from water. Global warming, you say? Will i survive just by swimming..there would be some boats then, right. Well, one of these days, i will start to learn this swimming shit.

So i spent my saturday watching my ol' buddies race it out in the pool (i chickened) while i sweat my tee out in the court and then we went for a show of transformers with the sexy sultry some-Huntington beauty in 3D, right in my face! Wow! Not a bad day at all.

Awesome thing # 17

2011-06-29T23:27:00.001+05:30

thrice....

#1. Had lunch with 2 of my best buddies of one-time office. An ugly man and a beautiful damsel :) Had super awesome fun and perhaps the best lunch in the past 5 months after resignation. Wow!

#2. Met old friends from my past employer. Almost everybody on accident! Met my GM who offered me a job while puffing his cigarette. A bugger, who reminded me that i owed him a grand :P An old girl friend who might have had a crush on me some time ;) 2 of the coolest chaps of my team and my old school friend.

#3. Made peace with the college bugger who is getting married within a week. (I am a good man).

@4. Made a new enemy in piyush, whom i could not meet because of 'valid reasons', but who saw me walking on the sidewalk with the old girl friend :P

all in all..a fuckin' A day..

Happiness has a limit..is it?

2011-06-29T00:27:00.001+05:30

I now understand how those comedy theater and movie actors feel. They might be terribly sad, holding their tears but what they have to put on their faces is a smile..or worse a grin.

So despite having a wonderful day today, in fact wonderful is a stoney word when the word best describing the wonderfulness of today should be mountainous, i have this feeling of emptiness i carry right now. You can not get everything you want is what i have learnt. You should learn to compromise is what i preach. and right now, i just hope this one wish of mine could come true. and i know it won't. it can't. and i need to compromise :(

I cannot sail in 2 boats. ek ko to chodna hi padega. I just hope i leave the right one and the one i take, doesn't betray me. and even if it does, i hope it's well in time. cz otherwise, i will be screwed!!

Awesome thing # 16

2011-06-28T02:00:00.000+05:30

and i came back from work with a beautiful girl sitting by my side in the most sucking Delhi Metro. I put the magazine i was reading aside and kept turning my head looking at her beautiful face and the cute haircut she was sporting. She didn't mind though..i hope so. I fell in love once again. Awesome! :)

Awesome thing # 15

2011-06-27T02:23:00.002+05:30

Wow!

Let me begin this speech by thanking Nipun for not bringing his confused ass in Romit's car for our outing today. god bless his confused head and confused soul :)

What started with a beautiful rainy day with an absolutely marvelous weather in Delhi, and continued with us playing cricket (after a zillion years) at India Gate (with 3 ducks for me :P), nearly ended in a complete disaster of an evening for Nipun who specially came all the way from his home sweet 30kms away to help Romit get his car towed! Thankfully there was some beer just in time to save the night for all of us :)

Disastrous Evening. Awesome Night. Fuckin' A.

Awesome thing # 14

2011-06-27T02:12:00.002+05:30

I am a pretty superstitious chap in almost all matters involving me. So, when i got a client feedback of exceeding his expectations beyond what he had thought, i thought twice before posting this status on facebook. Now i see that this post is the awesome thing #13 and i am thinking again. The thing is, it happens to me all the time. I see success in something and happily i tell people about it and things turn awry right from the next moment onwards. Kind of bullshit isn't it..either my head or the whole happening itself.

Still, i do it always..hoping this fucking thing might stop one day. and i said it again. I felt good today because of that. Went for Cars2 and paid for a friend's ticket as well and spent the night at India Gate eating chuski and ice cream and listening to music feeling the cold breeze outside while somebody else drove. It was awesome!

Awesome thing # 13

2011-06-26T15:42:00.003+05:30

I am superstitious. :)

Awesome thing # 12

2011-06-25T01:37:00.004+05:30

Trust me, the most awesome thing in this world has to be a good, heart pumping, gut paining laugh..it stays with you for a lifetime. Of course, i am tempted to think that sex is the most awesome, but then till i do it i guess, it has to be a nice laugh :)

Have you ever watched a movie which made you laugh your guts out? I bet you have. Watch it again, because it will make you laugh again :)

Here's a list of such awesome comedies i have watched (tried hard to remember)

50 awesome comedies

Hall Pass (the most recent one i watched)
Office Space (THE most awesome movie ever)
The Hangover
50 First Dates (in fact all Adam Sandler movies)
Kung Fu Panda 2
Kung Fu Panda 1 (2 is better than 1)
Due Date (i found it funny)
You Don't Mess with the Zohan (Adam Sandler)
Anger Management
Grown Ups
Happy Gilmore
Bedtime Stories
Hot Chick
Harold and Kumar go to White Castle
Euro Trip
The Girl Next Door
There's Something About Mary
Superbad
Naked Gun series (all of them!)
School of Rock
American Pie (the original one)
The Mask
Blue Streak
Deuce Bigalow: Male Gigolo
Major Payne
Groundhog Day
Get Smart
A Fish called Wanda
The Pink Panther
Dirty Rotten Scoundrels
Bean
Bedazzled (Liz Hurley is hot in this!!)
17 Again
Johnny English
Austin Powers
Trojan War
Home Alone series
Some Like it Hot
Tropic Thunder
Meet the Parents
Monsters Inc.
Cars
Finding Nemo
I love you, Man
Rush Hour
The Nutty Professor
Beverly Hills Cop
Dumb and Dumber
The Ugly Truth
Me, Myself & Irene

Honestly, i had to take imdb's help to make this list reach 50! But, here's the list i've watched and believe me you will laugh your asses off.

The list is also available at this link

Fuckin A!

Awesome thing # 11

2011-06-24T01:19:00.000+05:30

When you have a good hearty laugh with someone, you forget all the past tumultuous times, all the grudges and all the mishaps. You remember that laugh and keep that memory always. always :) and whenever you think of that moment, you feel awesome :)

Awesome thing # 10

2011-06-24T01:14:00.000+05:30

A different sort of a high

There comes a moment in life, when its just you for yourself and nothing else matters. Though, this moment generally comes when you are listening to one of your favorite songs! So, while the drums roll and the guitar flutters you begin to stop thinking. and slowly things stop making sense or non-sense. Everything seems as it should be. In fact you actually stop caring anymore. Life becomes beautiful and so do people around you (except those with the bad odour, they remain as ugly).

You can compare this state as that of meditation (if you've tried that). you become aware of things and you stop becoming judgmental. its a high. its like you're sitting in a boat all alone and the flowing water is taking you to places, making you 'feel' and 'realize' life itself. its like you're flying. its like awesomeness!

Awesome thing # 9

2011-06-23T03:49:00.001+05:30

My 1/15 minutes of fame

and i appeared on TV. appeared for a whole 5 minutes.. blabbered for 4 seconds. and the whole world watched!

I have never watched this show. For a simple reason that i consider the practice copied from a medieval hindu epic of a princess choosing his prince from among a crowd of clown princes, crap! It all started with the wannabe starlet named sawant and in this 3rd season a female popularly known as Lali decided to step into the shoes.

That one of my friends got selected to be one of the clown prince was his good luck. That while searching for his own 15 minutes of fame, he went as far as the final four and called me up to come and meet his would-be was my good luck. That all this meeting would be captured by 6 cameras and that i would be required to speak about my good friend sitting right next to me and that i would suddenly have this camera fright, was my bad luck!

and so after the shot i didnt dare tell any living soul of what happened. but whoa!! India watches this stupid show and suddenly everyone notices me on the tv, when i myself am not watching. But, thanks to the director, who actually thought what a fool i was in front of the camera, chopping off most of me from the clips, my dignity remained and for strange and unknown reasons i was appreciated for whatever was shown of me.

and i felt awesome. Not for the parts which showed me on tv, but for the parts which were not shown :)

Awesome thing # 8

2011-06-21T02:35:00.001+05:30

Now the only girl in this world who telephones me herself and talks to me at her own will is not going to foreign land. phew! was i not relieved to hear that this morning! The whole despair and the fear of becoming alone suddenly left me and i felt so light. The fact remains that we fight more than we talk. but then, atleast i have someone to shout at. Thank god!

Of course bad things continued throughout the day, like we lost a client - a motherfucker who thought we would make his resume for free and i got myself crammed in the metro in between sweaty souls and the worst of all, i couldn't go to play tennis even today.

But nonetheless, that was the first awesome thing for today.

The second one, was fried boiled eggs with fried spicy onions :)

Awesome thing # 7

2011-06-19T01:13:00.001+05:30

The best thing about being an entrepreneur is that you are :D The second best thing is that you learn a lot. Every single day sees a new learning. About stuffs. About life.

So today i learnt about 2 things. 1 stuff, 1 life.

The stuff part is cooler and so i will say that first. I learnt how to make some awesomely cool presentations. Presentations which will blow the minds of your audience. Presentations which will bring your contemporaries to their knees begging you to teach them. Presentations which might even make the girls go weak for you. #sigh# i wish presentations could do that! But nonetheless, presentations which will make you feel really good. drumroll. Welcome Prezi.com. The world's coolest tool. It helps you create flash based presentations in such a simple manner that even your unborn kid could do it! Try it yourself. The supercool part is that in just one big canvas, you can put all your stuff and you dont even have to arrange it. Just select a timeline and everything falls right into place :)

The second thing i learnt about is that girls are assholes. Actually i didnt learn it. I knew it all along, it just got ratified today. They spoil lives. and one from the fraternity just spoiled a friend's. and i felt bad for him when i met him today. You see, we guys are pretty emotional. We might not show it, but we are. Girls..girls are assholes. I just told you! They dont have emotions. All they have are tears. People mistake them for emotions. They are bullshit tears and nothing more. and when a girl takes them out, the whole fuckin world is with her. For a man..there's just one thing. Just one. BEER!

So while my friend learned life's bitter lesson the hard way, we both had some beer. and that cheered everyone up.

and that was the awesome thing for today. hic. ;)

Awesome thing # 6

2011-06-17T22:37:00.001+05:30

Rains!! :)

In the middle of a sun-burnt afternoon at 43 degrees, when it suddenly gets cloudy and windy and it drizzles like its never rained before, how do you feel? Awesome :D

Awesome thing # 5

2011-06-17T02:48:00.003+05:30

I so so much want to go on a vacation man! I need work, a lot of it. and more than that, i need somebody to talk to. Fuck, everybody seems busy! and the worst part is nobody understands. :( I really wish my best friend Amit was here. Best friends are best friends after all. But that motherfucker is sitting in America for god knows what reason!

Well anyways, in the middle of this another boring day, i found a breather when my childhood friend called me up today. He's in delhi. Married now. So we caught up after about 5-6 months, played bowling at a nearby mall, had some chaat and coffee and ice creams and talked about stuff. In fact i beat him, na thrashed him in the bowling alley with a score of 107-57 :D I had a sizzler brownie as well. ;)

Guess, not that bad a day afterall :)

Awesome thing # 4

2011-06-14T23:14:00.001+05:30

##sigh!## finally i am realising its not easy getting a new awesome thing everyday. Life is not that good!!
but i still found one for today :D

actually a lot happened today. Got a call from a student who was interested in using our services. and a previous lead got converted into a client. Then i worked on my new logo today afternoon. and my evening was spent in the company of some awemazing mouth bhwathering gol gappas.

and right now, its raining. awesome :)

Awesome thing # 3

2011-06-13T23:18:00.000+05:30

Although ironical, it did not come as a surprise to me that after describing 2 awesome days, my today was the most un-awesome. It was bad as hell in fact.

Still, i got up in the evening and left home in search for awesomeness. and find it i did a 1000 metres away from my home in one of the gardens of shalimar bagh - my neighbourhood park where residents flock during evenings for walks and plays.

after a couple rounds running and a couple of reps of warm-up, i lay in the grass and my ipod subsequent-ed on to the next song by GnR. Paradise City. and i looked up in the sky and there were the clouds and the moon - approaching its 15th day glory and i think i even saw an alien spaceship, yeah i think it was and the paradise city played as i lay in the grass and the cold wind blew.

Awesomeness :)

Awesome thing # 2

2011-06-13T01:03:00.003+05:30

We havent seen a client since last friday and things are in pretty bad shape. I have no clue what to do and no idea why people are just abandoning our services. Wish i had money..so i could hire Mc Kinsey and ask them to submit me a report on how to better things and increase reveues :P

So with no work, I was rotting in bed since morning on this sunday afternoon. and it was pretty boring. specially since after last saturday's Hard Rock cafe and its unlimited booze which left me tight on 1400 bucks and a lot of embarrassment and of course a really bad hangover (i thought i would die), i decided that THAT WAS IT. No more booze, no more partying and no more spending money. But today at some point i actually thought why not go party once again! Though, thanks to my empty wallet, it didnt take much of a jiffy for the thought to remain, well just that, a thought :P

so i lay and i lay and i tried to sleep and i couldnt sleep and i woke up and i strolled in my balcony and on the terrace when God suddenly whispered in piyush's ears - "Go and Play Tennis with Rajat." and so this guy called me up and in a flash i could sence freshness in the stale evening. Off i took out my racket and off we went and I had an evening well spent. Played doubles against guys who actually knew how to play. and lost a match at a respectable 2-6, 4-6. In fact at one point we came back from 1-5 to 4-5. Serves were going good, but the best part..my forehand. Those 'players' couldnt pick even one. :D

Awesome evening!

Awesome things begin from today

2011-06-12T02:11:00.004+05:30

Thanks to facebook and thanks to TED, I came to know of Neil Pasricha and 1000awesomethings.com. and thanks to my metro ride yesterday, i have decided to write about 1 awesome thing i experience everyday. I know i am not going to do it EVERYday, but wth, i will try.

Awesome thing # 1

It was Rashi R's marriage today. and she had cordially invited me. I had specially got a haircut for today cz i knew there will be some evs people (my previous employer) at the venue. and 'that girl'. but what i didnt know was that this would happen. 'That girl' called me up one day prior to the function and asked me how i would be going and will i be able to pick her up. what do you think my answer was :) btw, the fact is that i never had any good relations with her and in fact i used to hate her. but then before that i didnt. and after you've lost touch with people for a while, its the good things you think about, not the bad!

I picked up my dad's car and picked her up. all dressed in red and looking pretty gorgeous :P she sat at the front seat. I picked up 3 more ladies. so in all i was the lone male thing in the car with 4 beautiful damsels 8-)
We talked. Me n her. all the way to the venue. we shared our snacks. ate together. met the bride together. gave her a combined gift. came back together. talked all the way back. god knows about what not!

Now i dont know why it happened and how it fell in place. But even if it was a setup and even if it was a lie and even if it was momentary, after i left her home, guess how i felt. pretty AWESOME :)

P.S. a song comes to my mind: pal bhar ke liye koi hume pyar kar le..jhootha hi sahi :)

Thumbs Up and Thumbs Down

2011-05-22T03:29:00.003+05:30

Today should be the perfect day for this status, which i am shamefully copying from a friend's messanger.

"Delhi weather ##thumbs up##

Status single ##thumbs down##"

If you want to see how a city reeling under a 44 degree Celcius extremely HOT sun, gets transformed into a (seemingly) 10 degree Celcius Wet and Gorgeous weather, within a span of 12 hrs, you should come to my city. Delhi.

Delhi is a place for arrogant, hot headed people. A place where you cannot drive your car with a smile, because everyone hates you on the road. A place where you cannot ask a girl out because she is too egoistical to go out with you. A place where you cannot even give a good looking girl a compliment because she is too arrogant to accept it from you. A place where poverty meets excessive wealth. A place where a poor's life has no importance..ummm infact anybody's life is not important. Delhi is a place where only 2 things speak, money and power. There is no room for logic, there is no room for kindness. So you generally would hate this god damn city! well, i do.

but not on this day i dont. Somehow, delhi is the place i would want to be. if only i had someone here who would want to be with me here too :P but in delhi, i rule. well, we all think we rule. and that makes life interesting for everyone of us :D

perhaps staying here is the best thing for me. for delhi is the black pearl and i am its captain jack sparrow. and in my ship, i call the shots and no women are welcome. if it makes me feel good, so be it ;)

to delhi!

Scent of a Woman

2011-05-06T02:19:00.004+05:30

I have just watched the most amazing and romantic English flick..without a single girl in the main cast. and before you guess, i'm not gay :) Scent of a Woman has blown me away..and i must say Al Pacino did an orgasmic sort of an act.

It made me realize again something i always have believed. That the scent of a woman is the most beautiful scent afterall :) and wanting to hold that scent in your arms could very well be the most beautiful fantasy. Well, it is mine, it is.

Women! What can you say? Who made 'em? God must have been a fuckin' genius. The hair... They say the hair is everything, you know. Have you ever buried your nose in a mountain of curls... just wanted to go to sleep forever? Or lips... and when they touched, yours were like... that first swallow of wine... after you just crossed the desert. **and some censored lines :P**

Yesterday, i married my dearest friend to probably the most beautiful girl in the whole world for him now. I saw him smile, actually grin and i saw him hold the girl of his dreams close to him. Very close. Man, he just wouldn't let her go. The motherfucker even kissed her on stage. (not on the lips though, you perverts :P) That was Love. That was Bliss. and that was pure Happiness. :) The scent of a woman doing its thing :D

But seriously, what can be more rejuvenating for a man after a hard day's work. I know Beer would beat Woman black n blue!! :P but, if you think hard, it might be a close fight afterall. Sitting on the couch with your girl, holding her hand, giving her your shoulder to rest her head, smelling her hair (don't do this if your wife is a south Indian!!), slowly sliding your hand over to her neck, then shoulder, then clearing the hair falling on it, and then holding it tight, very tight..and then sliding down to her bare arm.......Beer? no baby..not even close :)

You know what has kept me going Charlie? The thought that one day, i'll have a woman's arms wrapped around me and her legs wrapped around me..and when i wake up, she'd be still there.

Well, its a fantasy alright and it'll remain a fantasy..but only till the day i find my wife..or if i am lucky enough..i'll find a girl who lets me do all this before marriage :D

bull shit

2011-04-23T01:11:00.000+05:30

what is it with lucky people? they got the cars, they got the girls and they got money! somewhere something has to be wrong with them, isnt it. After all no body is perfect. Atleast mortals are not; thats what my teachers have been telling me since i was 7!

people like us..you and me..we get those luck bursts in our lives. you know what i mean..we will be lucky for 2 days in a row. suddenly things will start falling into place. there wont be a torrential shower when you've forgotten your umbrella, and when you're walking on the pavement with the road submerged in waters, the next driver would suddenly slow down instead of splashing the mud on your face. and dare you say thats not luck. thats luck mind you very much. the days would be sunny and life, like nights, would be cool. untill the day after. the luck burst is over my friend. you are no more god's favourite child now.

but what happens with those skoda driving, one girl at the front, one at the back guys? aah, i get it..it must be like 2 girls and a car might be a lucky day for them too. bad days would involve just 1!

for us, we got no girls, we got no cars and whatever we got, be it the girl or the car..it keeps breaking down. crap!

My first entrepreneurial venture..comes to an end

2010-12-27T01:36:00.003+05:30

as i write this post, i am ironically listening to a song titled - Azaadiya from a movie Udaan. The thing which i started, the thing which could've given me that flight, that freedom is coming to an end. and it hurts :(
living room canvas will soon be history, resting in peace on my hard drive in a folder titled "Entrepreneur!"

Exactly an year ago, i nurtured this dream of becoming the first person to create an online experience of buying and selling paintings and works of arts, of providing a platform to artists, of partnerships and collaborations with art houses and what not. Even contemplated leaving job, and nearly left it in the pursuit..and actually let go of 2 mba seats as well! LivingRomCanvas gave me reasons to not do things which i did not want to. fuckin' job and fuckin' mba! i did not have a business plan and started in as immature way as anyone could have. even spent nearly 40k in the investments. the art works now hang on my room walls. they look beautiful though!

the process taught me. yes it is cliched to talk about how failures are the pillars of success and blah blah..but what i learnt from living room canvas is what no other experience could have even come close to teaching me. and for sure no mba could have!

Lesson 1. Starting an online business is by no means an easy job. The only difference from brick-and-mortar is in the initial investment. Where i invested 40k, in the real world i would have spent 400k to get started. Thats all. Getting buyers to buy an online stuff in India is even tougher than the real world.

Lesson 2. Suppliers have the potential to bring you to your knees and make you weep. They just dont fuckin listen! and you cant do anything about it..except hope that they die

Lesson 3. You should listen to your dad. and take advice. specially when he is a businessman himself! Dads might be wrong, but then if you can't convince your dad, you wont be able to convince your suppliers or your buyers.

Lesson 4. You should talk about your idea. There is one unknown market for artists in my city of which i came to know while discussing my idea with the panel at an XLRI interview!

Lesson 5. Subscribe to a business magazine. There are some stories which you will only find inside pages. Like i came to know of a competitor in one such magazine. It motivated me (although after disheartening me) and gave me a fresh perspective of a lot of things.

Lesson 6. which i did not do. You should not give up. at least not before you have tried all means. which i am not going to do now. Giving up is for losers. period.

Lesson 7. Think Big. This is not the age of earning 10,000 per month. In 20 years, a crore would be worth only a honda city!

Lesson 8. Market your stuff. as a friend once told me, "jo dikhta hai wo bikta hai".

Lesson 9. Lie only if you can. but dont lie to yourself.

Lesson 10. Never go to the market without a business plan and a model. Most people (including your suppliers) are reluctant for change. They will not talk to you unless they see money. You are no rocket singh and you will not get a goodwill loan.

Lesson 11. Dont be shy about investing. Unless you put in something, you wont get something out. but think twice before you take out your wallet.

Lesson 12. Unless you have really good friends, they won't help you. of the 25% you ask, half will think of their own interest and the rest will procrastinate. remember that you will be on your own.

Let me see how much of these lessons i keep in my mind for my next episode. I sure dont want to fail this time. The song still plays.....

Tennis is so cool

2010-11-15T01:22:00.001+05:30

enough writing about life and death. frankly, nobody wants to care about where my life is heading anyway! afterall, how many people's life's journeys do i myself care about! let me write about something else tonite (its 00:52)

okay..so the newest passion of my life these days, apart from the website i have started, will have to be tennis - lawn tennis. :) its the first day of the week and i already can't wait for Saturday, when i would put on my tee (with the pot belly tummy bulging out) and put on my shorts (which really look short on me!) and get inside my nike shoes (my best friends forever..you see feet stop growing after a certain age :P), and pick up those 2 tennis rackets and a dunlop and a cosco ball to go the court. We started playing on the clay court and then moved to the concrete one, finally realizing why they cant beat Nadal there! and let me tell you, concrete is no easy at all. Tennis is a game which requires huge amounts of stamina. and strong, very strong wrists. twice i felt i broke mine! When the ball from the other court, travelling at a nice 80mph hits your racket, the impact travels to your wrists and twists it like anything. and you got to twist it back again to play the shot, keeping the ball low, inside the court and outside of the opponent's reach! man that is tough. so you can understand how tough a game i play these days :D

after these stamina taking, fat burning tennis games i look much better. the tummy goes inside and my glowing face takes all the attention it deserves from the female badminton players at the other courts ;) then i come home, have a plate of chhole bhature and sleep. waking up with another KG gained :P but i am loving these saturday sunday mornings..and tennis rocks!

but how long will this continue, i wonder. all things change. and all good things come to an end. to make way for some more good things :D today is the day another thing should change. I have been waiting for it. and I shall quit my present job. Gosh, i hate this word 'job'. Thankfully i wont have one after this and hopefully i wouldnt need one. God, i dont want one! I just watched the Social Network and loved it. Frankly, thats something which you would want to do. Make an idea. Steal an idea for god's sake but make something out of it. An idea without implementation is as good as dead. and so i love Zuckerberg for creating theFacebook. and i love Sean Parker. and i love those girls these lucky nerd bastards make out with.

Sigh! Another post that began with tennis, ended with Me. :) "Its all about you isn't it", I can imagine someone saying it to my face someday. I hope by then, I am a millionaire!

the Hangover

2010-09-18T20:25:00.000+05:30

here is a list of things which happen to you after a night long session

1. you try to remember who all were there !!

2. you try to remember what all was there ;)

3. you try to remember what all shit came out of your mouth

4. you try to sleep, but you can't

5. you try to eat, but your appetite eludes you

6. and then finally, you try to write..and half an hr into writing the first 6 lines..you give up..

reaching there..slowly..

2010-09-10T00:29:00.002+05:30

i sit here in my room..listening to taylor swift..feeling light and heavy at the same time..wondering a lot..i close my eyes and a flashback starts..flashes of the not so distant past..and the first thing i realize is that i haven't been on a night's drive in so many months..and now that i think of going, it feels like a nightmare..who wants to get stuck in a jam..better think about it and write a post which noone would read!

life has become a routine..tasks which you do everyday..at the same time, for the same duration..how much time does it take for a person to get bored of doing the same thing over and over again?! let me see..i got bored of school in 10th..in fact i got fed up..so fed up that the next 2 years i didnt talk to anyone..i would go to school to argue with teachers, solve some physics and chase that so beautiful english teacher of the senior section, miss anjali..that drove me for 2 years..just before the boards i heard she got married..and that broke my heart..and school for me was over..

in college my excitement span lasted 3 years..though there were always some beautiful girls to chase, i gradually realised that either you were born with a girlfriend or you die without one! by the 4th year, i was desperate to get out of dce..(and now i regret that more than anything else!!..see thats what happens with me)..

i joined my first company..and all looked well..but as i realized, the enthusiasm span was decreasing further..this time girls didn't matter..ummm..well..more than that life itself started to matter..in 1 and a half years, the sulking started..i dragged on for another year and now i am at another place..

the span? well its been 7 months and the signs are showing :)

so the picture is pretty much clear..10, 3, 1.5, 7/12..what is next? i wonder..and in that wonderment i listen to taylor swift..as another day begins..

the memories shall always remain

2010-09-04T11:07:00.001+05:30

A Mr. Stephen William Hawking recently declared that god doesn't play dice with the world, because he doesn't exist. how do we then explain the crazy world we live in. well i like to believe that god or some super natural form does exist and whatever it is, it surely plays dice and is really bad at it! definitely not a winner.

because my super fucked up week (a result of 1s perhaps) turned upside down (rather downside up) to a super-duper awesome week's end (nothing less than 6s i am sure), i have reason to believe that yesterday was one of those day's the "IT" was out partying with buddies playing yahtzee. and for a change, IT won! so did i :)

i am not going to write another piece about my best friends. i have written a lot. and i am not going to wish that i get such nice evenings with them every now and then. i dont. excess of everything kills it. but when i wake up the following mornings, i get a sense of that emptiness. like its over. like why does a good time have to end. like what am i going to do today! another days of 3s, i guess or 2s? whatever it is..the memories will remain. the memories will keep me smiling. :)

Some people are just lucky..others are like me!

2010-08-24T00:38:00.000+05:30

Will someone please tell me what wrong have i done! why is it so difficult for things to fall in my place? and why is it so easy for me to be ignored? why the hell does a normal life elude me..always?!! WTF

i am chasing a dream

2010-08-09T01:34:00.001+05:30

i am chasing a dream..
my very own..
i might be a little slow..
but the hunger is not gone.

i live life my way..
no its not a sin..
but i want to live to be the best..
i only want to win.

someday i will..

do it on my own..

one day it will happen..

before i am gone.

yes its hard..
its not play..
but then life's a hard rock..
not molded clay.

you got to hit it hard..

you got to take it on the head..
only if you give it everything..
you'll find your own stead!

suddenly something terrible

2010-06-27T03:29:00.000+05:30

one good thing about staying late in office is that you get to travel back home during the dark part of the night..when there is no traffic..you could just stare at the road..and keep staring..thats what i do atleast..and thats when my brain shakes up..old memories, new ambitions, goals, targets and everything pops up..and also pops up the question, why me?!

i had never thought i would see this day..never ever..not even in my wildest imagination..it was all going so well..and then suddenly she broke up :( i was too possessive she says. well, when in a relationship you dont spend time with each other, thats perhaps the only thing you could show to make yourself feel that the girl is yours. even that is not acceptable.

i havent cried. i couldnt. the tears just wont come out. but how hard it is i have realised. i have no clue if she is feeling any remorse or happiness (cz of this freedom from possessiveness!) but its so god damn hard..i wish i could just cry once and get it out of my head for always. but i cant. man :(

i surely dont believe in love anymore. after giving my everything here, i have become empty now. i think its all bull shit. life goes on. you marry the girl your mom dad select, have kids and die. the girl now they would select would depend on her salary and qualifications and she would select you on the same basis. so marriage is nothing more than a security. a stability. without love. because if you show too much of it, she will run away.

why mba!

2010-06-01T00:43:00.001+05:30

i was going through my linkedin contacts and before i could wonder why i am on linkedin in the first place, i saw a friend's profile. my DCE classmate. after 3 years he is an MBA,CFA,FRM,CIIA,6 Sigma and ofcourse a B.E. ( i don't know the meaning of half of these!). He also claims to be the director of CSI in college, a society which supposedly I revived. well, i dont recall him anywhere close to CSI ever. anyways it might have helped him get his coveted degrees. why should i mind.

what i mind is the status people begin to give to anyone who holds degrees. and these people are not our oldie uncles and aunties, but people among ourselves. people my age, who sometimes think of writing books mocking MBAs and at other times ponder on how they are the only ones left of their college gang who's not in IIM. strange. once in a mock interview (yes i prepared for mba entrances too), my panel, from IIMA and C, asked me why did i want to do an mba when i clearly had a goal in mind. "MBA is for confused people", he said. I didnt have an answer. 2 months later, i didnt submit the fee for XLRI and left the MDI seat. I didnt want to do an mba. Not after i saw the kind of people who actually got selected. and not after i actually realised that people who went were absolutely not sure of what they wanted in life. well, i am.

mba gives you a settled life. a well paying job, a nice house and a big car. and i have let that life go. I tolled hard for 2 years to get these selections. and now i have chosen the path of struggle. just like my dad did when he was my age. i guess it runs in the family, huh. (i just hope my girl supports me just like my mom did).

well, i am pretty sure i wont be remembered from college photographs or as a guy who held 6 degrees from institutes of excellence or who got placed in a large international bank as the treasury head. but i would be pretty content as being remembered as the guy who didn't join the rat race. "He did what he wanted to", they should say.

some days are just so...aaarrrgggghhhhhhh..

2010-05-01T00:40:00.001+05:30

am i not glad this last day of april is over..but the agony sure isint yet..! wat started of as such a beautiful morning with a good night's sleep, the delhi metro, the nh8, the already short day and the friday..ended up in a thunder-storm of dust and water, a ruined friday night, a bruised ego, utter chaos, confusion and more confusion. f&*k.

ummm..might this be one of nature's ways of telling you to stop playing with ur life and doing something meaningful soon enough..or else life might become one of such aaarrrggghhhh nights....

change the typical indian

2010-04-20T23:24:00.001+05:30

if there is one time i would love to go back to, it would be the time of our freedom. i really want to have a look at those freedom fighters. were they real? did they really stand up to the might of the british? it really takes me a lot of conviction to realise that such people did exist. and it doesnt take me a second to realise that only few are in the same league today.

years after freedom, indians have become accustomed to being ruled. to being governed. they want somebody to preside over them, to tell them what to do, to guide them, to help them at every stage. indians love being slaves. all because of stupid wads of notes.

i've been working for nearly 3 years now. the very first day i started i saw my dreams getting crushed. it was not what was promised. it took me a lot of time to quit. cz i was a slave for money. and so were the other 2000 people i met there, who used to sulk daily about their job. nobody quit. nobody had the guts to. i'm into a new job now. but those 2000 people have not left me. they're here as well. they'are everywhere. i see people getting pissed off at the work, at their leaves getting cancelled, at not getting a hike, at everything. i see people literally crying at work. what i dont see is that one person who could be man/woman enough to work and live the way he wants.

why has it become so difficult. yes we do get entangled in the myriads of friendships at workplace (yes you do make some really great buddies at work sometimes), and also the loves and crushes drag you to that office every single day, but is that all you live for? Is india going to get better by only providing service to the western guys? we need to be doing some real work for our own people. why do we have to think of joining our dream company. why cant we create one? true there are always the bunch who only want to do what they're told. they cant question. they cant innovate. they cant even stand up for something wrong. but are you one of them. ask yourself.

steve jobs said in his famous stanford speech, "i wake up every morning and ask myself. if this was my last day at earth, would i still be doing what i'm going to do today. if the answer is no for somedays continuously, i change things". you dont have to be steve jobs to change things with your life. you only need to have some guts and a little confidence in yourself.

goa!

2010-03-14T03:26:00.005+05:30

when an absolutely planned trip goes unplanned....
Goa!
It all started in 2006. When we began to plan out a trip to simla. goa was echoed by all - we all wanted to visit this beach country but..who in the hell had the money! :( so the plan got dropped and instead we had a simply unforgettable trip to simla. spent some 145 Rs to reach there and came back in just 137! :P

come Dec 2009. atul has already resigned. resignation on my mind too. and along with that is the thing called Goa. with no job in hand, and a wealth of free time, i just couldn't resist that this was the best time to go for it. money i had. though not plenty, but i could manage. now i just needed some friends. and thankfully bros gaurav and nipun agreed. the plan was set. tickets bought! :) and off we went. 21st jan. my first air journey to bombay (exhilarating) and then a train to goa.

day1. get a simply amazing room in a super 4-5 star hotel for free :D yes! hire the best and the newest bikes in town. yes! and the road is ours :) hit anjuna for a beach party. bagpipers and lots of girls! eat drink and be merry. in the mean-time get to know that i have cleared a very important exam. the night has just begun dudes! then i see the most beautiful scene ever. the beach is quiet and lonely. and there is a full moon on the horizon with its reflection in the waters. wow! its 12 am and we sit by the shadows and..just sit!

day2. wake up. we are late! had to return the bikes, shit! reach the store. have a fight. bikeless :( fucking wander all over goa to get those machines and just cant get any. man, is everyone in goa!! 3 pm. still bikeless. another fight! fuck! finally take a cab to a beach. realise its the worst beach! leave. reach the shores and decide to take a cruise. man, is our day finally looking up? nope. of all the cruises available, we take the most shitty one. and it happens to be the costliest, not to speak, the longest one. wow! it ends and i have had enough! i want to go home, mummy!! so we take another cab and start for our room. but wait. we have a gambler with us and a casino just passed by. so what do we do..? boy we turn around. and enter. (yes i had to be cajoled!). gaurav starts the betting. and we follow suit. i look at the watch. its 12. is the worst day over yet?? after 3 hrs, and a lot of carefully and probabilistically planned bets, we are collectively richer by 50%. :P with a hood behind us. the fucker thinks that he is losing cz of us and wants to know our strategy!! man we are scared like hell. run out of the hotel and somehow reach our rooms. euphoria! we're rich :)

day3. wake up sid! get the bikes finally. go to the beach and play some :) if you start loving the waters, they start loving you too! and boy its really hard to look away from all the 'scantily clad' foreigners on the beach!! sports over, head to baga. and man do we have an atmosphere there. its partyyyyy. everwhere. and everywhere you look its a couple you find. i mean everysinglewhere. :( yo and thats wen my head goes wtf! to top that we have a hookah. the best or the worst one ever. it takes you to 7th heaven to ground to again heaven to again ground..!! i'm yet to find out what they put in it there. now, we could go to a disc and dance? but no, not with nipun and gaurav. these dogs will go to a casino but not to a disc in goa! and my night is ruined badly. i'm missing my gf and this was the best chance i had of going to a disc and i was unable to!! god knows what we eat or drink. but the last thing i remember is to be woken up on the beach. i had fallen asleep!

day4. wake up. now what?! seen the beaches. done the sports. now what? no idea, so we hit the swimming pool at the hotel. come down, change and checkout. keep our baggage at the store and take our bikes to the DCH fort. beautiful journey, amazingly beautiful place. take bikes back to calungate, another worst beach. start to leave and then find out about the hip club 9. turn around and reach vagatore. and i get to visit the best party club i have ever been to. super rocking music and an amazing dance floor. all open air. all beside the wonderful beach and a sexy sunset. but camers not allowed :P we leave just in time for returning the bikes. but fate has something else in store! the beautiful goan roads, which took us to the beaches and the forests, take me in front of a 10 ton 4 wheeler mass of metal! i meet with an accident, while overtaking a bus. cz i am late to realise that when i had overtaken the one in front of me, there was another one coming right at me from the front in the other lane! my defective bike saves me. how? it throws me on the road and sacrifises itself inside the frontal bus' front :P what happened next..later

first, let me take you through this step by step. why did it happen. could i have been saved? 1. unfortunately i am the one who remembered the way back so i had to lead. had someone else lead, i would've been saved. 2. gaurav wanted some shot (well it was due) and we stopped on the way. had we not stopped, the bus wouldn't have been in front of us to overtake. 3. gaurav wanted some shot on the way and we stopped twice. and i lost these mfs cz while i did, these two didn't remember we had to stop twice!! had that time been saved, the bus wouldnt have been in front of me. 4. i shouldnt have tried the stupid stunt :P

still, with only 25% of my fault in the accident, i get all the thrashing from them. i am saved but the bike's damaged. and with an experience of the kind of assholes goans are, we are paniced as hell. the bike damage cost would be exaggerated by the owner, we are sure. with noone to help us out (it was 9) we decide to fight among ourselves :P somehow common sense prevails and we return the bikes with minimal cost (cz owner is drunk!). shopping, dettol, and excruciating pain! we catch our train from goa to bombay.

day5. we leave goa and reach bombay. put our baggage and visit some places - gateway of india and marine drive. and i realise in that short trip that people in bombay are nice and helpful. night falls. gaurav leaves for gujrat and we come back to airport for our flight back. but, its not so easy is it? delhi has fog and we spend the night at the airport!

day6. finally, we get the flight. i pass out in plane and we reach delhi in time only to find out my foot is fractured!
goa finally over!

so what does this whole anecdote teach you? i'll tell you what. if you're a bunch of guys and you still havent visited goa....guys get the fucking tickets!!!

kitni der tak??

2010-01-29T16:15:00.004+05:30

have you ever tried to test nature's patience? don't. nature fucks like hell. but have you ever tried to test your own patience?

we all want somethings in life. and somethings we want real bad. how often do we get what we want? almost never. i'd say 1 in 100000 times. at least the figure is true for me. but isn't that because we stop waiting (and then stop trying)? yes. try this. the next time you want something really bad (something not in your hands) make a note of it. and wait. keep waiting. don't let that thing get out of your head. it'll eventually be yours. Must have heard of that cliched dialogue, "when you want something extremely bad, the whole universe conspires to give it to you!". i'll tell you what, its true. the problem is that the universe works really sloooooow. but it works nonetheless.

so the next time you want something, just don't stop wanting. If there is one person on this earth who should get that thing it should be you!

the reason

2010-01-10T23:56:00.008+05:30

Friday was my last day at work. for the time being. i was looking forward to this break..even though i had already had a month long one about a month ago! anyways, this whole looking forward thing got fucked up coz of one word, which highlights most of my blogs, nostalgia. i might not have enough words for describing the hatred i had for my workplace and for the work, but nostalgia fills me nonetheless. i was there for a whole 30 months. thats a loong time u see. my first company. i still remember the ecstasy of being placed, of getting my first job. only to land up here!

but, whatever happens happens for a reason. and the reason is only clear in retrospect. so while i wait for the actual retrospective to be enlightened, i might have discovered some reasons i was sent here for, myself.

number 1 reason was to find the absolutely amazing and crazy bunch of mf asshole friends i found here. "you dont make friends at the workplace", is what i used to hear. let me tell you something, i found my best friends here..in this hole. friends so good, i never even made in college. and to imagine most of them are only dceites, is even crazier. i mean how could we not meet in our abode?!
number 2 reason was to meet 2 absolutely amazing girls (both with strange names!) who would become my first and only female friends for life. they changed my whole perspective of looking at girls - now, all females are not as dumb and allergic as they look!
number 3, i was sent here to learn to laugh my guts out. i cant recall days when i actually did that before i came here. this sucking place which made me sulk so much, also gave me a friend who taught me to laugh. and laugh i now, from the inside! and with that friend i learnt to be a kid, to be myself when i wanted to be.
number 4 reason, and perhaps the most important one, it made me realise what a big mistake i had made when i chose software engineering as my profession! i was never born to do this. naah! well, it still didnt clear up what i was born to do :P but definitely not this!
number 5. now this is stupid. this place taught me the value of patience, the value of keeping quiet when silence mattered and, !!!! the value of being nice to everyone. i couldnt have said this 2 months ago. but something has woken up inside me..dn know for how long! i had thought of fighting with my onsite manager but i didnt. i thought of writing a nice hate mail before i left, but instead i met my seniors and left with a smile! and i had to remove the attitude problem badge i carried! unlike me, huh?

is it coincidental that when i came back from the month long break and had realised all this, that i immediately got the shift i was looking for? well, i guess somethings happen for a reason.

and those were the bestest days of my life..

2009-12-26T01:24:00.013+05:30

call it the 3 idiots effect or whatever, but right now i am nostalgic. friendship is the greatest treasure a man can have. dosti insaan ka sabse bada stan hai. :P yesterday i watched 3 idiots and went back 6 years in time. and today, absolutely coincidentally, i met 2 of my hostel buddies..and spent another memorable evening in the company of old friends.

DCE. 2003-2007. those were days. the days of sunlight and the days of rain. the nights of stars and the nights of pain (:P) how clearly i remember almost my whole college life. be it the dosas of my canteen or the photostats of roopali's notes. amit's samosa treats or lakhot's empty stomach. everything. almost everything. and to think its all over, is unthinkable!
i still remember my first day. my first sem. with romit, nitin and sushil. the 'leesure' days. when we all found each other.

my second sem. the days of playing volleyball and cricket. finding rivals and friends. amit's proposal and toilet stunts. the professor chasing us. and we losing our beloved volleyball!

the third sem at gaurav's room - BMH 116 (?). the days of studying graphics and the evenings of playing badminton. the times when i lived in the hostel for the first time (be it only for the nights!). the times when me amit and gaurav would lock ourselves in his room so that others could not find us. the times of fests. be it LH or miranda - we were everywhere! the times when nipun got a date and in that jaundice, i got a cellphone :P. the times when i screwed up my result for the first time.

my fourth sem when i posed as a model and walked the ramp with my college crush! the time when we went for an outstation trip to vaishno devi for the first time. the time when i became noticeable. and the time when i screwed up my result for the second time!

fifth sem. my association with sumit. the training at niscair. the fake projects. the time when i nearly topped my class (got a whopping 79%) and nearly gave romit a heart attack! (as they said, dost fail ho to bura lage..dost top kare to sala aur bhi bura lage!! :D) the times of csi revivals. when we gave csi a new life and still failed to elect a president from among ourselves. the times when i realised how divided we were. and the times when i was thrown out of a class report team by my own friends. (but ended up getting more marks than them :D).

the sixth sem. of hostel days, endless nights and countless bunks. when me and amit found aswal and his room. sleep wherever you find place, do whatever you want to, watch friends, movies, whatever..just DON'T go home! the nights of bits and bytes and b-plans. the nights of 1 bed, 3 people, 1000 mosquitos and a blood sucking lakhotia! the days of my training at TCIL. the days of cricket again. and the days when me nitin and shanti founded the R gang!

the seventh sem. the dreadful times of placements. the heartbreaks. the depressions. the failures. and more failures. the times when i smoked my first cigarette! and the times when i finally got my first job! and my first girlfriend. and then again, the times when i screwed up my result so bad for the third time!

and then the eighth sem. the time we went to simla. the trip which, till date, remains the most amazing trip of my life. the time when i literally stopped going to college. and the times when i screwed up the most important interview of my life. the time when i stopped realising what friendship is and the time when i stopped appearing in college photographs! and by the time i tried to make it up, it was too late. the time when everything started to make sense finally. and the time when i realised, that college was over! :(

UNACK mode!!!

2009-12-25T01:18:00.006+05:30

the biggest disappointment in life is not failure. it is when you are not acknowledged. an acknowledgment only means an act of realizing something. it is not judgmental. when you acknowledge you only realise that something has happened. whether it is good or bad is not the concern. so when you acknowledge an act, it doesn't mean you praise or thank; its an "i see you" kind of a thing. like i know what ur doing or what ur upto. its more like an act of getting noticed.

so when u keep slogging your ass to pass that exam or to get that promotion or to get that girl even, a simple acknowledgment does wonders. atleast ur being noticed. who would want to dress up well in a jungle void of any people! its the same thing. who would want to slog if there is noone noticing.

and so it applies to you as well. start noticing. there are people around you doing things. start giving them the acknowledgment that is due!

sweet november

2009-12-19T23:28:00.009+05:30

when i entered my second project and was allotted a seat at the new office, i was cursing the whole situation. i had already refused to go to the interview once before (one reason was the fear of yet another failure and second was the fear of stop using the company bus!). but i went and got selected. i had begun to hate my manager from the very first day and after similar experiences in previous project, i realised all managers are made of horse shit. later, though, i was to realise that this manager was a little different. he was made of some terrible mixture of pig, dog and horse shit, garnished with swine eggs. anyways, came Oct14 and i almost resigned. and i could not believe that i was doing it cz of this swine. i had always thought that noone could make you do anything unless u were willing urself. but i guess, the fear of setting things straight with my career and not screwing up unless i got my rating was making things hell for me. and then to make matters worse, lakhot resigned. man..how badly i wanted to follow in his footsteps and press that button only i know. but, i controlled. planned. timed.

exactly, 21 days later, i left. for a month.

and in that one month..i rediscovered myself. calmed down. re-planned. and to my utter surprise, for once, i became happy! i had simply forgotten what this word meant. 2 days after i left, i joined the Art of Living. another thing, i never expected myself to do. but all thanks to a pestering, i did. and boy, wasn't that the most delightful and amazing start to my break. it just changed me. the calm it brought me, the level of freedom it took me to, it was heavenly. for the first time, the world stopped mattering. i just couldn't care less! what followed in the next 3 weeks, were the effects of this operation i underwent.

i came closer to the people to whom i mattered. got involved in the affairs of those around me. and after a long time, instead of cribbing, i began talking..and how! and all this because i was far far away from the place i hated. and because i was finally finding time for my self. and i was enjoying every single bit of this not-doing-anything-ness. but yet, i was doing so much.

i'm back to the same old life now. the cribbing might slowly begin soon. or it might not ever. time and the degree of my transformation will tell. but i only wish to live that month again. me with only myself. and the sweet november of 2009.

what the fu*k :(

2009-11-05T23:25:00.010+05:30

i thought i had outgrown my cricket fever days. until today. india lost chasing australia's score of 349. by 3 runs.

i remember how i started watching cricket. playing was always a passion. but watching the game began with the 1996 cricket world cup. the first match i saw was india vs pakistan. jadeja -waqar. prasad - sohail. man! i still remember it. i was in the 6th std then. the very next match - india vs sri lanka. kambli, sachin, crowd going mad, play called off, tears. wow. my days of getting hooked on to cricket had started. it was more exciting than playing! over the years i realised why india is so obsessed with the game. year after year, matches got closer and closer. down to the wire as they used to say. india vs pakistan again. 1998 (8th std). dhaka. 315 to win. bad light. azhar insists on playing. saurav scores 124. need 18 to win of last 9. i'm praying. tears rolling down my cheeks. "god please have india win. i wont ever ask you for anything else." and kanitkar hits saqlain for 4. boy, didnt i cry that day. rushed down to my bro. hugged him and we celebrated like hell. it was diwali in january. few months later it was sharjah. sachin vs autralia. awesome. 2002 natwest series final. lords. 326 to win. the same prayers repeated. india wins. come down to 2003. world cup. india beats the shit out of england, thrashes pakistan. sachin is god.

many more years and many more matches later. sachin is still god. immortal. nearly chases down australia's 350. ALONE. makes an impeccable, classy, super sexy 175 off only 140 balls. no other batsman supports him except raina. india loses by 3 runs. :(

not a big deal huh? yes. you win some you lose some. but when u have the kind of indians around, i'd rather make a big fuss out of it. let me start with the biggest motherfucking sob dhoni. the guy had already lost the match in his head. so the super awesome effort by tendulkar didnt even matter to him. and when he came to the presentation he was rather happy looking! the bastard didnt even acknowledge sachin's innings. even ponting did! but our MSOB dhoni thought harbhajan was the hero of the day. fucker. the second sob is ashish nehra. he has the attitude man. wow. the asshole thinks he is the master of the universe whether he is batting or bowling. i think its the same with all delhi guys. kohli, nehra and even ishant now. these idiots should be thrown out of the team and asked to learn some humility. and then arun lal. i am a fan of his now. when a batsman, sachin, scores 175, bats for nearly 50 overs and sees his team lose, what question do you ask him? "sachin what drives you to play even at this age. what is your secret?" wtf is that supposed to mean?! i mean spare a thought for the guy. he must be close to tears. all effort literally wasted. out of 10 people not even 1 could support him. and what do you do. you give him a bike's key and ask him his secret?! limit!

these are the kind of people who never actually grow up and never actually want to win. and would never want anyone else win either. but sachin is here to stay. you cant take him. he is the GOD. among the dogs.

social medicine?

2009-10-05T01:08:00.011+05:30

okay alchohol gives you a high. no doubt. but then whats the point of doing something wild when you cannot even remember it afterwards!
pepsi and coca cola might be nothing more than sweetened waters but then what is alchohol? absolutely bitter tasting ecstasy?

alchoholic drinks are the worst way to spend your money. i have friends, who wouldn't take out 10 bucks for a parking ticket let alone 1000 for the shared bill, but would go to the most expensive 'eating' restaurant there is and then order drinks rather than food. why? because they want to show that they can drink.

rule #1. if you really think drinking gives you a high and really want to experience it, go to the wine n beer shop (read theka), grab that fav drink of yours and have it. at 1/4th the cost!

and then they would drink that ONE peg..just one mind you..'hold it' for the rest of the party and go home! wtf! whoever said one shot gives you a high. it doesnt. but you have to sit in that swanky place and order 'alchohol'. and why no second peg? Dude, cz its too costly! remember 10 bucks? :)

rule #2. if you really want to get a high at a bargain, go to that wine n beer shop again and get your fav drink. at 1/4th the cost!
catch: you won't be able to show off!

and also another pint is way over 'my capacity dude'!
so there are things that go down with alchohol. peanuts and gossips are the two most noteworthy. after 3-4 drinks (varying on the volume of your tanker), things usually come up. in the form of slime and peanuts and everything that you've been eating for the past 6 hrs.

rule #3. drink on an empty stomach to avoid vomiting.

rule #4. drink according to your capacity. not to your neigbour's!

but why do you need alchohol to hold down a conversation? i just cannot apply any logic. in fact it is senseless. but then it is that unsaid rule. you want to get close to your boss's ass, get him to a daaru party. you want to strike a business deal, daaru party (no deals were struck drinking coca cola!). fuck man, you want to get laid, alchohol is the word! (but then there it actually makes a lot of sense, doesnt it? :D)

rule #5. if you really want to get laid, offer the appropriate drink to the girl next to you in the bar. how do i knw it? ur guess!

okay. so why do you want to get that high afterall? why do business deals strike well over a fucking glass of whiskey? why is champagne opened for celebrations? there has got to be something that i am missing. atleast one thing is for sure. drink if you do not want to be a social outcast. its like that. whether you like it or not. that bitter tasting thin coloured film like liquid that burns your throat and spins your head and makes you vomit - Thats the social medicine.
and its not even a manly thing anymore. women drink as much as men do.

rule #6. vodka is for ladies btw (undebatable!).

so very soon we might actually be having only two kinds of people in the world. ya u guessed it. people who take this medicine and people who do not. people who take it - you already have the world with you. you just have to bring it to your feet. for people who do not - its going to be a lot and lot of hard work.

P.S. nothing personal

mis mejores amigos

2009-09-28T02:02:00.005+05:30

yaaro dosti badi hi haseen hai

ye na ho to bolo kya hai zindagi hai

i thrive on my friends. without them my life is incomplete. my idea of a perfect day would be one which ends with a nights drive with friends to any place. a cup of coffee, a beer or a hookah - anything will do. and lots n lots of bakwaas. abt cars careers trips and plans and ofcourse girls. when friends meet, magic happens. truly.

i was never like this before. infact i had started believing that people make friends only to serve their own ends. to quote chanakya "There is some self-interest behind every friendship. There is no friendship without self-interests. This is a bitter truth".

the truth in fact as i realised, is farther from it. true, your best friends can only be tested in times of adversity but friends you make not to wait for those times. they are there to have fun. to talk to when u really need somebody. to scold you and to pamper you. to help you squander your money and to help them waste theirs. to ruin your health and help them ruin theirs. to help u get in trouble and then to bail you out. to actually fuck life.....together :)

As someone sometime said "An old friend will help you move. A good friend will help you move a dead body". Friends will walk in while the rest of the world is walking out. :)

progenitor dillema resolved

2009-09-02T11:43:00.006+05:30

all good things in life must not be savored. the more incomplete the fulfilling is the more want for it is created and the more you want to run after something the better your life becomes, the happier, more excited you get.

simple rule. you dont have to apply it. it'll apply on its own. just observe. and apply it will to anything. games, work, girls, food, cars, anything!
the game you're playing gets over. the girl you are chasing, agrees! the chocolate pie you've been wanting to eat for so long, you finally get to eat it. now what. its over! its like a dog. it chases a car. thats its life. what if the car stops? well, he turns around and runs after another.
that chocolate pie is your dream perhaps. and you can spend your whole life running behind that dream. what will you be doing once you get it? relax? then why don't you relax now? i don't know where this piece is heading but one thing is for sure. we live that dog kind of life.

if we ever had any animal ancestors it were dogs and not monkeys. just look at yourself. there is no monkeylike thing in us. we dont even have a red butt. we live that dog kind of life. monkeys help each other when in distress. dogs? dogs stare. and keep staring. they cannot help. thats what humans do. and i dn know about monkeys but you think dogs are faithful? they are the most promiscuous of the animals. they are not faithful. they are faithful to their masters. only to them. can you get the similarity now? are you faithful? to whom?

shit happens!

2009-08-31T22:09:00.003+05:30

so the other day i went to watch a play. an aptly titled play! this was the first time i was watching a play. the tickets were on me and i think none of us was actually in a mood to go. so i really hoped the play wud better be good. and by god wasn't i delighted! the play was awesome. beyond my imagination. after 1.5 hrs my mouth was literally paining cz of all the laughs. i jumped in my seat, clapped loud, laughed like anything and gasped at the sheer holy god amazingness of the act. shit happens was shitty. full of chaos, drama, confusion, item numbers, 20 year olds, 50 year olds and some serious hilarious shit! n all in just 1.5 hrs. no intermission. wow.

movies suck. trust me. they are fake. plays? plays rock. no makeup. pure acting. no breaks. just you and the audience. audience is involved in the act. we dont just sit around and see! we participate. atleast react. even with the chaos that was created on stage that day, i was awestruck by the talent of the cast, their acting, remembering those loooooong dialogues and delivering them with such panache. it was awesome. you cannot find this in the movies. movies are unreal. they create a world which is not there. plays keep you grounded where you are. and expose you to the real life. it might be funny at times and sad at others. nevertheless it is real. movies are just so perfect you know. everything is in place. no flaws. plays? well plays are still better. cz in theatre, as in real life, shit happens!

chain reaction

2009-08-08T17:04:00.001+05:30

saxo triggered it..nagar put in some more electrodes and it started. friends began to part. maulein followed soon and now me and nischal. its like we were put in this place for 2 years to find all the friends we could cz after that we were going to move away. now ive moved away frm 2 of my best buddies who're still there. vershney dude i'm going to miss u buddy. i had never, in my wildest dreams, imagined that i would find 3 dogs just like me, that too in my job! saxo deepak and vershney. kaminey!

after saxo and deepak, vershney was the only partner i got. similar tastes similar reactions similar everythings. i'm sure our undies would be similar! its like we were bros who got lost in some -ya, you know it - mela and met after 23 years. huffing and puffing we would run behind 'cars', party and fuck life. the only thing he was, left of this quicksand full of pigs who were ready to drown in it and pull anyone coming close. but even i had no other option but to leave this hole. i didnt want to drown. vershney buddy, you dont need to either. get out of it, you've held longer than required. and so does my other friend. get a life both of you. there is a better world outside of here. stop making yourself realise that the work is good. it is not! look at people half talented earning 10times as you. fuck the promotion. MONEY is everything - THAT is the reality. get some man.

atleast i wanto. i am not going to think about frnds now. not anymore. i found who all i had to. it has to be MY life now. i'll live hw i wanto. and i''ll do what i wanto. afterall, i aint gonna live forever.

its a french flower, isn't it?

2009-07-23T11:13:00.001+05:30

these are the worst days. one by one my friends just keep going away. and sometimes you don't realise the importance of people until they're gone. today i realised maulein's. 4by4 i used to call her or momo (short for ??) or just oye (no name required. i'd shout oye in the middle of the road and she would know!). when she told me that she was leaving i was literally ecstatic. when someone leaves the kind of shit we are into, it gives u a strange sort of happiness..as if its u who is leaving! 7 days later, i'm writing this post. i write when i am sad :(

i can recall every moment we shared together. started from our training. oasis. we were in the same project. maulein. what a strange name. who names their daughter maulein?! before office i'd never had a female aquaintance, let alone friend. and my first impression of this girl was fearful. i saw her as a sardarni who would gobble me up the moment i opened my mouth to utter a word! i was so scared to talk to her. but she was so cool! still i kept my apprehensions and my distance. why take a chance!

after the project we got inducted to the same project again. and thats when we developed some friendship. who says girls and guys cannot be good friends..they can be awesome! over the two years with maulein i have developed a friendship i could only have imagined. in her i always saw that elder sister who could compose me when i was angry and irritated, who could guide me when i was lost and who could encourage me when i was raring to go. over time she became what i call my 'crib' buddy. i would go to her seat and crib about evrything bothering me. the project, the team, the people. and she would listen. i would irritate her and pester her. and she would listen. fat as we both are (she is fatter), we used to go for evening walks. climbing 2 floors of stairs twice every evening! i'm going to miss those talks and those walks. and i'm going to miss her like hell. she made these 2 years bearable, in the literal sense of that word.

now that she's gone, i dn knw whats going to happen tomorrow. vershney and tulsi..u two better stay put.

a beginner once again?

2009-05-31T00:05:00.002+05:30

in a matter of just 2 days, my life's suddenly turned upside down. and how! i'm losing my job. my best friend's gone. and i have no clue about what am i going to do with my life.

attitude problems he cited. my manager. and there was that little feeling of pride i got. "never bent in front of anyone" i said. and i got a bro-clap from saxo. and thats wat led to the expulsion. perhaps this was necessary. otherwise i would've been stuck at this place forever. well one thing is for sure..that my job sucks. i hate going to the place everyday. the work is aweful and so are the people.

so in a way its good it happened. but i always thought i had a plan b ready. incase something of this sort happened. successful people always have. now that its time to implement it, somehow i have lost my guts! i never want to do a technical monotonous job. naah. i'm not made for it. and i really can't take orders man. not from anyone. i dn listen to my dad, how the hell can i listen to my boss..! and who made him my boss anyways..

still, till the time i get my guts together to take some big risk with my life and do wat i truly want to..i'll have to do that. if not here then maybe somewhere else. but atleast the work be good.

2 good friends will also lose their job like me in a matter of 2 months. shamefully, i'm glad that i'm not the only one. but they surely deserved better. much better than this.

thursday sucked so much. got the news of my NR. then 3 friends. all unhappy with their ratings. and it was saxo's second last day in office. and friday he was gone. man i'm going to miss him. if theres one thing i have loved about this sucking place it's that it gave me friends for life. Best Friends. friends who i can count on and who can count on me. deepak, saxo, vershney, tulsi, maulein and nischal. for them this pace was worth the sucking. with deepak and saxo not here now..i dn wanto be here anyways.

my guts want me to start something. something with my life. i dn wanto live a cubicle life anymore. now that its coming to an end maybe another door is opening. i am a beginner once again!

random thoughts

2009-05-11T01:16:00.001+05:30

Hurray for a child
That makes it through
If there's any way
Because the answer lies in you

They're laid to rest
Before they know just what to do
Their souls are lost
Because they
could never find

What's this life for

we don't live for ourselves. infact we stop doing that the moment we're born. its either somebody else's wishes which guide our actions and thoughts or it is peer pressure. accept it or not, we all fall into that trap (peer pressure) more often than we know.

atleast it is true for me. i want to run away from all this. god only knows how many things i hate about the world around me right now. and i cannot do anything about it. every single day i put myself through the same old shit again n again. i'm getting sucked into this spiral of life.

love is the most beautiful feeling in the world. but only in the nascent stages. because after that what replaces love are possessiveness, mistrust (and later distrust), expectations and sometimes boredom. and the thing which kills this beautiful feeling most is expectation. the expectation of response. Someone's said, "If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were." then why the fucking expectation? because of the fear. the paranoia. that whom you love so much may not love you the same way now! which is false in most cases. still the expectations remain. and love is lost.

the world is full of sham and pretence. and somehow it is the people who fake the most are loved the most. i know of many. and at times it becomes difficult for you to live without that pretending you know. it sucks. why can't everything be straightforward.

why me and she click!

2009-03-24T03:25:00.000+05:30

its going to be 3 years soon. we're still together. and loving it. we've grown up. become mature. become ambitious. we know the importance of our careers now. and we know each others place in our lives. what we need now is a stable job..a steady career.

but why do we click? i don't have a definite answer.

she's not my type. neither am i hers. leos and aquarians don't match. not at a physical level, not at the mental one.

i always liked girls with long hair. she has always had them short. girls with big eyes. she has small. fair girls? she is dusky. tall girls. she is. somewhat. she is not the aishwarya rai i wanted my girlfriend to be. neither am i the shah rukh khan she wanted her guy to be. i dont boast of a great physique (infact i'm somewhat fat!). my hairs in a mess always.

at the other level, i've screwed up things between us so many times that any other girl would have left me there and then! i am the most immoral and unethical person in the world. i lie, cheat (though never steal) when i want to. she is the goddess of ethics. she cannot lie (ever). and forget about cheating. i'd always have a 1000 ways to bend the rules and screw up the ethics..she wouldn't listen to one of them! i am a movie buff. she hates movies. i have scores of best friends to go out with and i love doing that. she has her only best friend in me (though i absolutely love that). she is a family person. i try to run away from all my family dramas as far as possible. i HATE girls (almost all of them, apart from the two others i can call my friends). she has more male friends than female ones! (and i hate that). she is an epitome of confidence. i am at the nadir, always.

then why!? Opposites attract, i guess!

well, maybe because we're equally dumb! we are intelligent when we have to be. at all other times, we are dumb. we act foolishly. we goofup equally bad. we both forget things (well i guess thats more with me than her). we both are equally rude when angry (she's more than me!!!). we both NEVER look good together in ANY photograph! so theres no competetion. and we both have a good command over english and we like that in each other (though she is better than me).

end of similarities!

i guess we both are perfectly imperfect. but in that imperfection we have found the perfect love for each other.

the ultimate truth

2009-02-23T15:29:00.001+05:30

Perhaps there is just one truth. the ultimate one. death. is there anything more certain than that? by god i wish there was. its like the culmination of whatever you've done, whatever you've achieved, whatever you were or whatever you wanted to be. it all ends there.

i'm tempted to think what death is like..and a chill runs down my spine. i cry. i dont wanto die. nobody does. but then, thats the inevitable for you. tell me, what happens when we sleep. is it not what death must be like? unconscious and unaware. just lying down there. dreaming about somethings, fantasies or real people. but everythings far from the truth. and then waking up with no idea what happened in the past 6hrs. for more than 1/4th of the day, we actually die..everyday!

and then life gives us a second chance. everyday. what for? to make ammends. yes. am i discovering a philosopher in me. don't know but it sure sounds nice. we wake up everyday from that state of half-death and then live the next 3/4th to make the same mistakes again! surely sounds foolish. and by the time we realise this fact its already too late. on the final bed.

perhaps i should start making my ammends. "Be the change you want others to be". i start tomorrow. right now, its time to sleep.

2K3/IT/944 Delhi College of Engineering

2008-12-29T00:49:00.001+05:30

its 12:45 AM. i should be asleep by now. tomorrows office! and that thing keeping me awake right now is my college. My DCE. it happens to me every now and then actually - i begin to feel nostalgic about it. about the place where i spent 4 amazingly glorious years of my life. and then i switch on my PC. browse through those posts i wrote about my years in college. then view all those endless amount of pictures we took at the campus, those literally unplanned trips to anywhere we could manage to go and those aimless moments we spent in college in the hostel and on the cricket field - sometimes just sitting in the field and waiting! and then i just curse myself. and life as such. why couldn't have i just been in college. why did it have to end. honestly..WHERE THE HELL DID THOSE 4 YEARS GO..! :(

i wish tomorrow was that same monday i saw 2 years ago. i wish i would wake up in the morning and then sleep back again and then wake 2 hrs later to leave for college. i wish i would call up a friend and ask him to mark a proxy. and then i wish when i reach college there would be a mass bunk called and i'd get a call to directly reach the tennis court for the cricket match thats about to start between us and the electrical guys. and i wish we would keep playing the whole day after defeating them. and in the middle of this lakhot would keep falling on the court and hurt all his body parts one by one. ;) and then as the sun would set we would all go to the canteen and have our glasses of banana and butterscotch shakes. :) and then after some of us have left for home, me and amit and nipun would go to the hostel to anybody's room we could find open. and then we would decide to stay back in the hostel for the rest of the night (nipun wont). and then we would go to apsara's for our dinner and then come back and roam around in the campus till 3 in the morning. and then baba's chai and maggi. then some more bc......

how i wish.........

why i love to hate people..

2008-07-23T12:21:00.001+05:30

right now i am as cynical as anyone can ever be. right now i can blow up a wtc or plant a bomb in my office. right now i hate evryone so much i wish either the world comes to an end or me. just one question i wanto ask. why am i wired the way i am. i could've been a more cheerful person. someone they call the life of a party. i couldve been someone to whom criticism doesnt matter. someone who could take a little insult as a joke. someone who woudnt mind his girlfriend talking to someone else. someone who wouldnt mind lagging behind if those leading him were that good. but all this affects me. i'm made up that way. the problem is that the world doesnt work like that. life's too short to be taken seriously, they say.

life is too short. and what could be worse than spending it in regret and remorse. in hatred and cynicism. i could change myself. i can be the nice guy they talked about. i can wait for my due. and why not, is it that difficult to be happy? no. but it is very difficult to reason. reason why u were wronged. reason why u were taken for granted. reason why u were mislead, misinformed and misinterpreted. maybe i should stop this reasoning. maybe i should just love myself (not in a narcissistic way but a more psychological one) and let the world end on its own. maybe i should work.

yes, dats what i should do. that is what should keep me busy. that is where i should put my hrt and mind to. maybe then i wont have the time to think about when i was wronged. maybe when i work, i'll be too busy to think about people. i have so many ambitions. i've always wanted to do so much. why should those ambitions suffer because i realised somethings were more important than work. i tell this to everyone. but the fact remains that it is not true. my work matters. it helps me get near those dreams i always saw.

someone's said, life is one of those races in nursery school, where you have to run with a marble in a spoon kept in your mouth. With life, health and relationships are the marble. If the marble falls, there is no point coming first. now i know the problem with my race. the marble in my case is a crazy ball. and its sole purpose is to bounce around. i've always tried to be the one who would reach the end with the marble intact even if i reach last. perhaps that kind of race is not meant for me. or perhaps i might give myself some speed cz my marble is anyhow going to fall.

Ode to the Nice Guys

2008-07-22T21:16:00.001+05:30

This rant was written for the Wharton Undergraduate Journal

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl's every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they're at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don't end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn't worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you'd ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world.

And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn't have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing "serious" between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: "oh, but we're just friends!" And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you're nice like that.

The nice guys don't often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don't seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can't. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical and manipulative. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as "oh, he's too nice to date" or "he would be a good boyfriend but he's not for me" or "he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn't possibly ask him out!" or the most frustrating of all: "no, it would ruin our friendship." Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can't figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I'm going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn't last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you're sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.

time flies...

2007-12-29T13:56:00.002+05:30

it really does..specially when everything's going right. there's a famous quote by the genius mr. einstein, "Put your hand on a hot stove for a minute, and it seems like an hour. Sit with a pretty girl for an hour, and it seems like a minute. THAT'S relativity." so when i spent a whole week traveling 2500 kilometers back n forth and holding hands with the prettiest girl in the whole world and came back home, it seemed like a minute, infact a second. i mean where did those 168 hrs go.. it seems like a dream. a dream i wish i had never woken up from.

still, reality is what this is. i'm back here. in the worst place of all. the capital city of india. n going to office again! man, can it get any worse.. being a software engineer sucks. just yesterday i had packed my bags n left for the station..telling all kinds of lies to everyone. i lost track of which lie i told whom. someone was told i'm going on a holiday with my friends. to some i was going to my maternal grandmother for a week. n to some it was just a break i was taking from office! dad left me at the station and as i sat in the compartment i fell a tinge of guilt. you know, you shouldn't lie to your moms.
anyways, i had already found a place to stay at a friend's who was going on a similar mission! it had struck me once, when i had talked to him 2 days before leaving, that it had been a while we both had talked and quite a long while since we met. and that while i'm at his place we could hang out together. but was i not glad he wasn't there while i was! sorry buddy, but i dnt think anyone else can understand this better than you.

after 36 hrs of travel, the impatient journey finally ended. n bliss followed..:)

it a week gone now. n i dont have anything to say. i've woken up. my scientific mind tells me that whatever goes, comes back. maybe it is true for time also. why arent engineers and scientists trying their hands on a time machine. maybe i'll do some research. when i find time. right now i have codes to write for my software company.

i think i should get ready now..dont want to be late for office.